[Jennifer1084]

Well though I am afraid to post and though I think all I do is bother everyone, I decided to post anyway. I am not doing so well. Was in the hospital yet again a few weeks ago and was in the partial hospitalization program for a few weeks. Just finished yesterday actually and started art therapy today. It went ok, I guess. I see my regular T tomorrow and I am really nervous about it. I just hope it will go ok, it's been awhile since I've seen her and I am afraid she is mad at me or something. Besides I have some things I need to talk to her about. LIke this part I found out about that went shopping and bought a book that is going to be very difficult for us to go through. Its called the Courage to Heal, I'm sure some of you maybe have heard of it, I hadn't. Well sorry this is so long and all, I am sorry if I have wasted your time or bothered anyone. OH maybe I just need to shut up.

Jennifer

[InACorner]

you never waste anyones time...at all
you are very brave and it seems you are getting the help you need..im very proud of you...good luck my heart is with you
(((((((((hugs if its ok)))))))))))

[Jennifer1084]

Thank you Inacorner. I always think I am a waste of time and all that. Maybe I am, maybe I'm not, but it's just so hard to know.

Jennifer

(((( Jennifer1084 ))))

You ARE NOT a waste of time. You are a very warm and caring person.

I'm so sorry you've hit another rough patch and hope things smooth out for you soon.

The Courage To Heal can be a very intimidating journey and I'm glad you're going to share it with your T. It's not something most people in crisis are able to handle on their own, nor should they try, imo.

Keep us posted on how your session with T goes and how you're doing. Things have been quiet in the forum lately, so don't think anything if people are slow to respond.

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((jennifer1084))))))))))))))) You are no waste of time. I am sorry that things are so hard for you right now. I am glad you have a supportive T and finding other support. Please take care.

[Jennifer1084]

Hey Petunia, thank you for the encouragement. It really helps to see that someone things I am good and that someone cares, even though they really don't know me. I talked to my T today and we decided that we would pick and choose things from the book and see what happens. I think we are going to work on the beginning, like with safety first and then work our way through. I don't know, my T didn't really seem to like the idea too much. But maybe it's just me.

Jennifer

[Jennifer1084]

Thanks, bipolar_bear, I am just trying to make it through right now. I am actually working right now, went back tonight after being off for some time and well I'm not doing so much. Thank you for assuring me that I am not a waste of time. I know it is wrong for me to say that and to think that and to feel that way, but it's how I feel. I am just so glad that I have a place I can come to and share safely and someone will usually respond, maybe some people do care in this world.

Jennifer