It's my turn

Hi my names Adam. I'm the alter to my other persona Nero(Charis). I thought I should have a turn to talk and get a chance I finally feel in my element and not hers. It's me who want's to talk and not her. I believe, I'm the one that is dissociate, but she believes she just has a split personality or some gender identity, but trust me I'm real. I don't get a chance to come out because she either doesn't let me or I'm not in a feel to come out, she knows I can't come out easily since I'm acknowledged I'm in a female body. So I ignore it sometimes, but it's there, I not dumb. I like the boobs though, but I don't appreciate them on me particularly. So yeah, that's me, got any questions for me you can ask. Bye

hi adam
I am kaliopes alter Julian.....I know what it is like to be trapped inside. kali never lets me out...she has had me buried for years. medicated me away. I just came out again and she wasn't thrilled. I am the ruler. she doesn't realize it but I am in charge of everything in here. she thinks she can keep me down but I have ultimate power. I can drive her mad. I have done it before. it is nice meeting you........

Hello and know how it's like, she feels I'm too much and is afraid I'll cause her trouble, so she limits me and keeps me hidden from people so I don't start something she thinks she's going to have to finish. I hate her sometimes, but I'm also protecting her, so I don't kill us both.

Thats amazing that she has the ability to suppress/not let you out. ...Usually... with DID type alters the person the alters reside with in can not control when and where their alters come out. not saying you dont exist just saying this is very unusual for DID type alters. you may find talking with your treatment providers will help you both start working together so that you both can co exist and get both needs met.

by you stating you are the dissociate what do you mean? do you mean what dissociate/dissociation means here where I am...that you feel numb spaced out, unable to feel your body parts, ...

if so there are ways that you can help yourself (alter or host) to feel less dissociate (feel less numb, less spaced out, less foggy minded, be able to feel your body parts more) its called grounding. some places call this self nurturing and other places call it reparenting. in short it means doing things that are calming and relaxing puts you back in touch with your senses of touch, smell....

example when I feel numb, spacey, foggy minded I smell apples and cinnamon, I row my canoe around the lake. ...

Well she believes she can suppress me, but really I'm mostly there and controlling her. She believes she knows what to do with me, but she doesn't. Most of the time, I'm her thoughts, other her verbal statements. I'm pretty much the one who has more control and has her mind set to how I please, but she still thinks when it's her, that I'm the one that's being pushed back.

my only suggestion is to contact her/your treatment providers they will be able to explain to you why you/she has not been diagnosed with DID, but rather other mental disorders with similar symptoms and why they call you an imaginary friend rather than a DID type alter (an other post by your user name states your/her treatment providers said you didnt have DID and that you are called an imaginary friend which is why I worded my reply this way)

I know it can be so confusing, the other diagnosis doesnt mean you dont exist. just that you dont fit the diagnostic criteria for DID at the time the diagnosing was done.

one thing you/she can do is if you feel the present diagnosis is wrong you can request an updated diagnostic evaluation for dissociative disorders. thats a whole mess of tests... physical, mental and academic that can accurately diagnose you/her and then you will know whats what and get the appropriate treatment.