[A18793715]

I talked to my doctor about that today. She said it could be a dissociative disorder. I've only had less than 7 times where people have told me about snapping into someone else. They were always years apart. But when I think about it, it only happens during extremely stressful times. But after around 11pm each night the last couple of months, I only remember bits and pieces but I can remember getting into bed. There will be FB messages, emails, texts. Etc that shows all this stuff id never say to anyone in real life.

I had a major life change 8 months ago. I had to move back home where it's beyond stressful. My anxiety meds aren't enough. I'm very depressed. My doctor gave up on me because she said there's nothing else she can do. My current diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder.

Can DID cause psychosis? No antipsychotics have ever did anything for me.

[Claritytoo]

Have you had a complete physical to make sure you don't have something physical going on that could cause memory loss? Also it's time to get a new therapist, especially now that your environment is more stressful. I hope you start feeling better.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by A18793715

I talked to my doctor about that today. She said it could be a dissociative disorder. I've only had less than 7 times where people have told me about snapping into someone else. They were always years apart. But when I think about it, it only happens during extremely stressful times. But after around 11pm each night the last couple of months, I only remember bits and pieces but I can remember getting into bed. There will be FB messages, emails, texts. Etc that shows all this stuff id never say to anyone in real life.

I had a major life change 8 months ago. I had to move back home where it's beyond stressful. My anxiety meds aren't enough. I'm very depressed. My doctor gave up on me because she said there's nothing else she can do. My current diagnosis is schizoaffective disorder.

Can DID cause psychosis? No antipsychotics have ever did anything for me.

no DID does not cause psychosis and psychosis does not cause DID. short version with DID reality testing remains intact, (the person and alters know whats real and what isnt, dont lose track of whats real, ) with psychosis reality testing does not remain intact. (cant always tell whats real and whats not real, hallucinations, delusions, delusional thoughts...)

that said a person can have more than one mental illness at the same time, meaning someone can have both the mental disorder DID and have the mental disorder psychosis, or for example having DID and having bipolar disorder which can also have psychotic symptoms.

my suggestion talk with your (or a) mental health provider in your locaiton, they can help you figure out if these problems you have been having is DID or psychosis or whether you have more than one mental illness at the same time.

i hope you get to feeling better!

hugs

No antipsychotics have ever did anything for me.

True here. My pdoc and everyone else keeps asking me if I hear voices and I made the mistake of saying "yes". I do have visual hallucinations, but no auditory ones. I got pumped full of AP but the voices are still there.

I got to talk to a skitzo in the hospital and compared my voices to a hallucatory one. She said that mine were odd because mine don't ever go away and I have intelligent conversations with them. We also take votes on what to do and not to do. My "command voices" come from renegade alters.

My life is segmented. I generally can't build a timeline of my day. The number of times I say "I can't believe I did that". I'll find stuff moved around that I know I didn't move even though I'm alone. I'll do things and not remember doing them, the memory seeming like a dream leaving me not sure if I did them- this screws me when it comes to taking meds. I find notes in my hand writing that I have no memory of writing.

So there's no question I'm not psychotic or delusional, even though I do wonder at times.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

True here. My pdoc and everyone else keeps asking me if I hear voices and I made the mistake of saying "yes". I do have visual hallucinations, but no auditory ones. I got pumped full of AP but the voices are still there.

I got to talk to a skitzo in the hospital and compared my voices to a hallucatory one. She said that mine were odd because mine don't ever go away and I have intelligent conversations with them. We also take votes on what to do and not to do. My "command voices" come from renegade alters.

My life is segmented. I generally can't build a timeline of my day. The number of times I say "I can't believe I did that". I'll find stuff moved around that I know I didn't move even though I'm alone. I'll do things and not remember doing them, the memory seeming like a dream leaving me not sure if I did them- this screws me when it comes to taking meds. I find notes in my hand writing that I have no memory of writing.

So there's no question I'm not psychotic or delusional, even though I do wonder at times.

just a little heads up anti psychotics only get rid of the voices if that medication is the right one for you. it sometimes takes many many years to find the right combo of medications to get rid of the voices due to delusions /psychosis/psychotic type voices. Also even with dissociative type voices the voices sometimes do go away/cease to be heard/ go quiet. Sometimes Dissociative type alters run a close similarity to those alters of other mental disorders. example schizophrenics can have what you call renegade alters. I know many schizophrenic that have intelligent conversations with their delusional/psychotic type alters. usually when someone is in active delusional/psychotic states of mind their alters are very real to them and they do have conversations. heck when my bipolar disorder is active and my meds arent working right my delusional/psychotic type alters are very real very intelligent, street smart..short version delusional/psychotic type alters can have the same IQ , smarts, language and such of the person this type of alter is within. example since I am a college grad my delusional/psychotic type alters also contain that same intellect, vocab/language skills/logic...its actually easier to talk with alters that are delusional/psychotic types than it is with dissociative types. Dissociative type alters hold secrets/traumas and such that they dont share with the person they reside with in so they tend to be hard to get along with, hard to communicate with, hard to get to co operate...in general ...usually it takes many years of therapy work to establish/develop things like communication/co consciousness, breaking through the walls to the trauma's that caused the dissociative type alters to be created...

my suggestion is dont try to compare yourself to others with all kinds of mental disorders to figure out your own mental disorders/ internal system of alters. there are many different mental and physical health problems that can result in many different kinds of alters that can seem the same and different. the best way to find out whether you have a certain type of alter and mental disorder is go through diagnostic evaluations. this is a very lengthy testing process that takes into consideration all types of mental and physical health problems and all kinds of alters, and can accurately tell you what your mental disorder and your alter types are. This way you wont need to make guesses based on talking to other people with schizophrenia and other mental disorders and possibly end up coming to the wrong conclusions. for how your own problems and alters are.

let me show you what I mean...

one day when I was hospitalized I was talking to someone who had the same identical symptoms and alters to me. I thought oh man I dont want to be labeled Autistic but they have the same problems I have so that must be what I have, I can deal with this, ok not the end of the world. I also talked with someone with DID while I was there. their voices and symptoms were very different than me so I thought phew at least I know Im not DID.

well after all the testing was done turned out I wasnt Autistic but was DID.

I could have seriously harmed myself mentally and physically by sticking with the wrong conclusion that I had Autism because my DID problems would not have been taken care of. not to mention the treatment plans for auitism are completely different than that for dissociative disorders.

if you really think you have a dissociative disorder please dont leave it to the luck of the draw of talking with people with other mental disorders andcomparing yourself to others. please talk with your doctors they can help you get the right testing, treatment plans and yes in some cases for some dissociative disorders meds can help. theres no medications to cure DID but there is meds that can help with what causes a person to dissociate like anxiety, depression, psychosis, and other problems that are known to cause a person to dissociate.

Thanks amandalouise, I was going to quote Ya but...

Appreciate your thoughts. What I meant about 'renegade personalities' are more on the line of personalities I lived my life thru for a period of time through at points in my life that I needed to cope- mostly for social situations and relationships. I've lived a wide variety of different ways, Like a mean biker, gangster, etc. I know it's silly.

Believe me, there are things that I don't know that I find out about later, maybe. My life has been a series of traumatic events, starting back from when I was a tot. Being bipolar at a young age (I was seeing things at 5), the childhood beatings I endured seemed so much worse, I guess. I don't remember most of them. I disassociated from the pain. I was beat and bullied by both parents up to high school. I was a shell of a person till I was in late 20s. Being beat into submission, all my personalities "went under ground". We were insulted and berated daily by both parents. The details evade me, but I can feel the feeling. I'm about to cry. The last time we talked I cut myself and ended up in the hospital so I'm going to stop here. It wasn't your fault, it was just the pain I demanded up.

I do have missing time in segments, not large batches. The voices have personalities which have actually ran this body for a period of time.

To me today, they are renegade to my present way of living. They are suggestions that I would of done in a different life, but not today, hence renegade.

The AP I'm on does wonders for my hallucinations, nips it in the bud so to speak.

I'm not going to compete with you. I've been this way for over 40 years. I appreciate your knowledge. I'm glad for you. Sorry the things I say aren't exactly right because I tend to generalize a lot lending to misunderstandings. I'm the product of a disjointed life.

"I do have missing time in segments, not large batches."- I wrote.

I take that back. I'm missing big chunks of my life, like I have a spotty past, random snap shots of things.

Sorry for hijacking