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anyone care to explain the difference between MPD/DID and Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder?

each country has their own definitions of what is and isnt a mental disorder. here in my location (USA) the difference is that DID is a mental disorder where you have two or more special types of alternate personalities. depersonalization/derealization does not include having to have two or more alternate personalities. short version depersonalization /derealization is things like feeling numb, spaced out, disconnected, like an observer rather than a participant. with depersonalization these feelings are perceived as being inside your self ( I feel numb, I feel spaced out, i feel like I am moving out of sinc with everyone /everything) where as derealization is feeling those outside yourself is unreal dreamlike, moving at a pace different than the way you normally are. (everyone else seems to be talking too fast, moving too slow or fast....the world feels unreal rather than I feel unreal...)

It's complicated for me to. I've been googling it for days, but I don't feel comfortable enough to even to begin to try to explain it. I'm sure someone else of higher understanding like Amanda will be glad to respond in layman terms.

i don't believe i have alters or if i do, i don't name them/know them. i have no farking idea. i'm more than sure i have depersonalization/derealization disorder. i'm sort of scared to get diagnosed with this; i've already been dx'd with schizoaffective disorder. yeah, i'm ashamed of my mental illness, it makes me feel weak. i will convince you nothing is wrong with me and yet that is how i feel, that nothing is wrong with me. but i have millions of input telling me that something is severely wrong with me - why. i don't know. i feel fine. i really just want to know what is "wrong" so i can "fix" it, "cope" with it. i'm so confused that everything is beginning to make sense. HAHAHA.
the real big problem is i don't even care, i am just curious.

I'm sorry smilesandcries, everything in the dissociative spectrum requires work with a therapist specializing in this disorder. There are alters that are not fully developed alters with names and genders, but more like emotional alters or fragments.

Depersonalization is like having an out of body experience. You are watching yourself but not in control, like at a movie or theatre.
Derealization is when everything around you appears unreal.

DID is a disorder stemming from preadolescent trauma before the age of 5. A child's brain hasn't yet integrated so it dissociates creating alters. These alters then develop personality traits of another person. You can have from 2 alters up towards a thousand. There are like 20 or so alter types. Alters are basically the way the mind copes with situations that a normal person can handle on a singularity because they are integrated. DID is still seperate, so memories stay with the alter, hence missing time.

Are you missing time, like time holes in your day that are just gone?

I'm not bothered about MI. It makes me me. I'm unique. Besides, I got an alter that'll beat Ya up!

Mpd is just the old name for did. Its referring to the same disease. Dd is where you dont feel real - youre not real, or the world isnt real. It has nothing to do with having alters, where as did definitely does. (although ppl with did may experience dd)

Hope that helped.

maybe i need to go to a damn psychologist and get this **** sorted out, because i keep doing stuff i don't want to do, have time lapses, everything is just lost, it feels like. yet i feel fine. maybe because i am so used to feeling this way, it feels normal. i definitely have childhood trauma before the age of 5. i do feel like everyone is slow and everything is slow. i have had out of body experiences since i was a small child, i have always felt like i am looking at myself from above, or through a glass window. not all the time, but it happens often.

the thing is, i'm not really ashamed of mental illness, i just... i don't want to hear peoples' **** about it. people are completely ignorant when it comes to education about mental illness that they ask stupid questions, speak at me loudly, talk slower. it's irritating. i'm already confused about why i can't be "accepted" or "normal" and all of that. i don't even care anymore, i have like 2 friends in real life, which is saying better than last year, and the last 8 years, i had 0 friends. i am a mess. i need help. but i just sit here. and i am a hypocrite. it's crazy. who is this. i keep saying i don't care, but i am annoyed with myself because i won't get off my *** and get help. the main problem is i literally live in the middle of nowhere, there is no help out here, i can't find it if it is. every time i try to get help, all of the numbers are disconnected or i live in the wrong county or my insurance doesn't cover it. this is when i'm getting ready to give up again. just fuk it.

Hey hun, you definetly sound like depersonalization and disrealization plus disassociation, like the rest of us special people. Only a mental health provider can determine the real deal, but I'd bet my marbles on you.

Just stay here and keep venting, ranting, asking, pleeeease. We luuuuv you.

I just got a brand new pdoc in an uncommitted way acknowledge in one vist that I'm like multi personality screwed in the frame of normality is not here.