OMG... I feel so genderly mixed up

I keep switching from fem to male to fem to male and back all day long. Only good thing about it is I come out of denial real fast! Lolol.

It's tiring. I get into a personality, and it's like I'm at home at last then wham, everything changes, repeat. I've had gender issues since forever. I'm fem strong over male, but then again, I am male strong over female! Ugh.

Just a thought causes a switch, even the mention of an alters name effects a switch. Changing through several in a moment is like electro-shock!. I've got like 10 main alters at the moment that I switch too. When No one, who is genderless and emotionally neutral comes up front, I get some peace.

Sometimes I'm afraid my teens are going to give me a heart attack! A few of them have ADHD, at least it feels like it. Thankful I quit smoking, at least to physically keep up for a second.

I'd love to be different, but this exactly isn't it!

Oh gee yeah totally that's tiring indeed to constantly be switching like this.

I'm still really happy that you've got an awesome T now!

And kudos to you for quitting smoking.

That is next on my to do list - that's a real hard one for me.

I'm transgender and so it makes me so curious about other people's alters with varying genders and how they've handled it/what they think of it. many of mine are girls (i was "born a girl") but then there are a few boys and some gender less ones. i like the idea that there are boys and girls and non-gender ones because it makes me feel like since we're all here we're just all genders and i like that. many experiences and many points of view!
that's so cool that you could stop smoking though! i've got a part who's a smoker - luckily they only comes out when we're really upset and then only needs a couple drags to settle back down again

"even the mention of an alters name effects a switch. Changing through several in a moment is like electro-shock!. I've got like 10 main alters at the moment that I switch too. When No one, who is genderless and emotionally neutral comes up front, I get some peace. "

I can really relate to this! I don't give out our names until I've been with a therapist for a while - or my best friend. Because just like (snap!) that, with the name, they'll switch in. Drives me nuts. My last therapist did it a lot. I knew her for 4 months. Even their nicknames (which was what she had) now cause a switch. Grrrr. Frustrating. 3 are working on name changes... that might help. But it's so ingrained, that may not be possible.

This is a difficult reality, but I'm so glad you shared. Having the multiple parts and genders present IS totally exhausting of itself. Add to that, people calling me by the given name all the time and I'm wiped out. Frankly, I do not know who to manage this. I think of the given name as referring to a Corporation, not an actual person. But it isn't the name I'd give the system. But the outside world knows that name. So here we are. Sigh.

Yes, thanks for answering and being in agreement. We're conditioned to the body's/system's name by now. But if everyone knew my other's names, it can get pretty messy if we switch at hearing our name called, which is what we do when we call each other out.