[just2b]

Okay, been struggling with something lately and want to get others perspectives or advice or suggestions on their experience with this.

I have this really easy job. I drive a lot. And take pictures of homes. The requirements vary per job order. Been doing this since September. However, I will say the constant mistakes have come down a lot since but it seems they happen in spurts. I have anxiety if I am approached or feel that someone at the home may come out and start asking questions. ( this has happened a few times and I seem to match their attitude with my response, so if they are rude I am rude back) so back to my struggle, I seem to forget stuff, especially one of the pictures. Even though I have read the job requirements and know what the job requires. I have tried writing stuff down, tried making a checklist, tried keeping a list on my phone, ( that is what I use to take the pictures) it's frustrating for me to have to go back to a home more than once and cost me more money in gas and time. So I had thought of just quitting. But then I realized what else can I do. I have never lasted more than 3 years at a job and less than a week for others. Time loss, forgetfulness, and not being present seem to be what gets in the way of me staying or doing anything.

Do you feel that accepting mental illness or disorders are part of what's in the way?? I keep thinking if only I could.... But it's really not that simple is it?? I don't know.

I think that is my barrier I can't accept that DID is a barrier or obstacle that needs to be worked on all the time.

What do you think??

Thanks

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by just2b

Okay, been struggling with something lately and want to get others perspectives or advice or suggestions on their experience with this.

I have this really easy job. I drive a lot. And take pictures of homes. The requirements vary per job order. Been doing this since September. However, I will say the constant mistakes have come down a lot since but it seems they happen in spurts. I have anxiety if I am approached or feel that someone at the home may come out and start asking questions. ( this has happened a few times and I seem to match their attitude with my response, so if they are rude I am rude back) so back to my struggle, I seem to forget stuff, especially one of the pictures. Even though I have read the job requirements and know what the job requires. I have tried writing stuff down, tried making a checklist, tried keeping a list on my phone, ( that is what I use to take the pictures) it's frustrating for me to have to go back to a home more than once and cost me more money in gas and time. So I had thought of just quitting. But then I realized what else can I do. I have never lasted more than 3 years at a job and less than a week for others. Time loss, forgetfulness, and not being present seem to be what gets in the way of me staying or doing anything.

Do you feel that accepting mental illness or disorders are part of what's in the way?? I keep thinking if only I could.... But it's really not that simple is it?? I don't know.

I think that is my barrier I can't accept that DID is a barrier or obstacle that needs to be worked on all the time.

What do you think??

Thanks

In general I dont think mental disorders need to be worked on all the time. I mean if someone is constantly thinking about their mental problems then of course those problems are going to happen more....example if you sprain your ankle sure it hurts. but if you spend 24/7 thinking and working on trying to get that ankle to stop hurting, just because you are focused so much on that ankle its going to continue to hurt even after its healed the mind will tell a person its not healed. the mind is an amazing thing. that can conjure up someones worst fears, aches, pains, problems if thats the mind set that someone is in.

with me after I learned that my dissociative problems came with memory problems and time loss I just connected every single instance of those with my mental disorder. turned out I was wrong. my work related forgetfulness and time loss was not always connected to having dissociative disorders. After talking with my treatment providers I found out that forgetfulness and time loss with DID is a very special kind of forgetfulness\time loss. and that there are many different things that can cause very similar problems with forgetfulness and time loss.

some of the non dissociative problems that cause me to have forgetfulness and time loss are ....

anxiety, stress, trying to be perfect, lack of sleep, skipping meals or not eating correctly, my medications, MS, anemia, pregnancy, ,.....

it was so easy for me to say all my forgetfulness and time loss was my DID that I didnt take the time to actually see that it may not be DID related.

I also know older people who have the problem of forgetfulness/time loss and its part of their menopause problems.

my point is breath and take time to talk with your treatment providers. this problem may be so simple as to having a medication change or other adjustments to your life that can help this situation to get better.

Something to think about.... i take it since they are confronting you for doing your job that you dont have permission to photograph these peoples homes...

um. hate to tell you this but in some locations this is actually a crime...invasion of privacy, stalking, to take photos of peoples property and homes with out their permission... ....think about this for a minute.... what if you happened to be home and you noticed some stranger outside taking pictures of your home, what would you think? with me the first thing I do when I see this happening is call the cops. if they have not asked my permission then they dont belong there taking pictures of my property and home. its usually a crime behind this kind of thing like scoping out the property to break in/steal/ or stalking or other crimes so i can understand home owners and others confronting you when you are taking photos of their homes with out their permission.

another suggestion... maybe you can contact the homeowners .....before......going out and photographing their homes. once you have their permission to photograph their homes theres no need to worry about confrontations with the homeowners while you are photographing their homes. if you dont have to worry about being confronted while doing your job maybe you wont be so anxious on the job and in turn that will make it so that you dont have time loss and forgetfulness on the job....

Wow, that's a hard job, taking pictures of homes without the owner's consent. I'm surprised that you haven't been approached yet by the law from some irate homeowner. It sounds like a really stressful job, anything dealing with other people to me is stressful.

I just see MI as a fact of my life. Sure it has "ruined" my life, but I have to let that go to live for tomorrow and just accept that I am what I am. That my life to live, it may suck, but it's all mine to make the most of for the best that I can.

I'm just a rowboat in the sea pushed around by the winds of MI (my) life.

I quit measuring me up to the standards of "normal" people because I will be disappointed every time. I set my own standards and own them because I'm special that way.

We hope that you find your own peace.

I also want to add that forgetfulness isn't always DID. Being distracted, nervous, stressed, licit and illicit drugs, hungry, emotional, moody, sleepy and other things also contribute to it.

Even stressing over MI in an obsessive way keeps the mind preoccupied. I'm like so guilty.

[just2b]

Things to think about. Some good points made. Thanks

Just so anyone out there understands when you sign a mortgage loan the lender has every right to send third party vendors out to the property to take photos to ensure there is no damages. I am so surprised that many are not educated or aware of this. It's in the fine print that no one reads. I am legally there for a job.

[just2b]

And this only happens when you have defaulted or refinance a loan

Originally Posted by just2b

Things to think about. Some good points made. Thanks

Just so anyone out there understands when you sign a mortgage loan the lender has every right to send third party vendors out to the property to take photos to ensure there is no damages. I am so surprised that many are not educated or aware of this. It's in the fine print that no one reads. I am legally there for a job.

Oh, I didn't know what you do. This makes better sense! Lol

Still a stressful job having to deal with irate people. Much like a repo man.

[amandalouise]

here in New York when a lender sends out a photographer like they are you, the photographer makes an appointment with the home owner. put simply even though the photographer is there legally to do a job, anyone can call the cops because they see a person hanging out in front of someones home snapping photos can mean anything including criminal activities. the cops then have to take time away from possible other crimes that may be happening in order to varify the persons story that they are there legally doing a job. kind of like 911 operators may end up missing out on helping someone else who really needs their help because they are tied up with dealing with a situation that wasnt an emergency. it also takes time out of the employees getting their job of photographing done if they have to stop what they are doing, go with the police and have the police verify their credential and make sure they really were at that home for legal reasons. By making an appointment with the homeowners that saves time and hassle and stress on all sides not just the photographer. anyway thats how my location deals with this kind of thing.

[Kiya]

Well , I guess it's all in how you face it. It could be a barrier (and you look in to disability and work a little on the side when/as you can), or you push through and keep going and do the very best you can. It sounds like you are utilizing a lot of skills to do that. But that time loss, frustration, etc get in the way. As long as you can keep ahead of the game, I say do it. Living on SSDI is hard. People don't understand how hard until they get there. Keep brainstorming ideas and clues! I really hope things work out for you!

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by just2b

And this only happens when you have defaulted or refinance a loan

Or if the house is being appraised or is like a home that is being appraised and needs a comparison.

[just2b]

Did not realize my job would cause so much talk!!?? Thanks Kiya for your comments.
Just amazed... Lol...wow. Stunned.

Originally Posted by just2b

Did not realize my job would cause so much talk!!?? Thanks Kiya for your comments.
Just amazed... Lol...wow. Stunned.

Lol, I deal with homeowners everyday as a designer/remodeler. They are pretty particular people. I always feel like there's a nanny cam on me! Lol