[finding_my_way]

i have never been able to envision things for myself as far as the future, goals, what i want/would like for myself relationship wise, career wise, etc.

sometimes though, i see other versions of myself in my head that are married or these ideas come into my head that randomly getting married and living a different life could just somehow happen. but i don't know if that is a type of daydreaming and normal and how others generally see things or it is related to dissociation. the versions i see in my head are not me, not even looks wise, and not personality wise either. and they don't live things outwardly either, so i don't know 'what' it is. any ideas? it just leaves me feeling a bit confused and can actually cause me to feel anxious and slightly dissociated thinking about it.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by finding_my_way

i have never been able to envision things for myself as far as the future, goals, what i want/would like for myself relationship wise, career wise, etc.

sometimes though, i see other versions of myself in my head that are married or these ideas come into my head that randomly getting married and living a different life could just somehow happen. but i don't know if that is a type of daydreaming and normal and how others generally see things or it is related to dissociation. the versions i see in my head are not me, not even looks wise, and not personality wise either. and they don't live things outwardly either, so i don't know 'what' it is. any ideas? it just leaves me feeling a bit confused and can actually cause me to feel anxious and slightly dissociated thinking about it.

Im sorry but we can not diagnose whats what with in you. what I can say is that there are normal forms of dissociation and there are abnormal forms of dissociation. what brings daydreaming into the fold of dissociation is other accompanying symptoms that goes beyond the normal standards and diagnostics for dissociation.

here in america we have standardized testing process that can assess whether a person is in the normal daydreaming mode and whether they are in dissociative mode.

one of the easiest ways I find to tell whether I am in normal daydreaming mode vs a dissociative mode is to check my body and mind for my dissociative symptoms and ask myself whether something triggering has happened. dissociation is one of those cause and effect situations where something happens to cause the reaction of dissociating. example did something cause me to feel anxious, did something cause me to feel scared, can I feel my body parts or do I feel numb, why do I feel numb....

when I see other versions of myself or other parts of self in my mind my treatment providers call it psychosis\delusions\ visual hallucinations, unless of course I am purposely thinking about what I may look like or if my therapist and I are doing an inner child type therapy approach of imagining what i or a part of me would look like which is different than actually having alternate personalities.

sometimes my medications cause this to happen too so when it does I contact my treatment providers. we go through the process of assessing my meds and all medical problems that can cause this along with all the psychological problems that share this same problem.

my suggestion if this continues to bother you contact your treatment providers. they can get you through all the medical and psychological evaluations that can tell you whether this is normal or dissociative or any other medical/mental or normal problem this may be.

Awww, how cool that you are seeing the dreams and wishes of your others, that's what I get out of it.

I fer sure don't look like what this body looks like!

When I'm day dreaming, it's like I'm in a fantasy state. The other day like the other day though, I kept dissociating into a fog trance. I fought and fought to stay central, but getting hit with derealism too made it a lot of fun....not.

[finding_my_way]

yeah. i am not really sure what it is. i just find it strange because i don't even like the version i see....or whatever it is. i am not sure if it's one i have even 'known' ever so am even more confused. none of it makes any sense. i am not going to dwell on it..but i just was trying to figure out what it could be.

it's similar to how my dreams can be when i am asleep in that i am another version of me, i don't look like me and am not 'me' but am in the dream..so similar as that except i'm awake....i don't know if it's part of what 'i' want and that is what it is and because i think it cannot be possible it comes out like that or what....anyway.....lol