just confusion

i have felt really off the last few days. i'm not sure how really, just completely confused. my dreams and reality are kind of mixed together in a way...yet neither seems more real than the other.

i had something trigger me the last few days on and off, so maybe that is why i am feeling off. it just isn't a 'usual' type of dissociation either, nothing i'm familiar with, so maybe it's also partly why i am feeling afraid of it....i don't know 'what' it is so cannot accept it or just sit with it...except i know it's the only choice i have.

it just isn't making sense. can't focus, and my head feels like it's scrambled.

It's good that you're writing about it- easier to see patterns that way.

Sometimes when I am feeling off I will ask my system why. Usually someone will let me know. And usually some time after that I begin to feel better.

i am still really struggling today. i managed to get through work, but things feel really unsettled inside. i keep trying to make sense of it, but i can't...there are no images...no real feelings besides intermittent anxiety, panic, and crying for a few seconds...and it feels like some moments things are going to explode inside..and then it calms down again. all i can do is sit through it and feel it...and it's very difficult.

i feel almost like i'm drunk or something because of the dissociation. it started not long after i woke up this morning and has been going on on and off the last few days...but i didn't really know it was happening and have been confused for days. i don't lose time...it's just..this drunk-like feeling that makes things feel very strange...and then i don't always remember a few hours or a day or two after if it lessens again....except it's still me typing this..so..i'm not understanding how this even works.

what you say makes sense. If I remember back far enough, that's how things started for me as well. and lately again I have that "drunk" or high feeling from dissociation. THat's why I never liked getting high - the lack of control.
Keep holding on!!!

yes hang in there as long as you can and talk to a t.

Hang in there. I can get it I think, but we don't feel drunk. We feel dazed and confused. I try fighting it because I don't like it. I've got to get real intense like because if I relax, it starts winning. After several hours I'll come out of it. It's triggered by situations beyond our ability to successfully handle.

Hey, finding_my_way. Maybe, it's because of what triggered you. Perhaps, the system is dealing with the upheavel the trigger caused for them and for you.

I hope the confusion clears up soon, and that in time you feel better.