Insiders

Friday night I met with my group of folks who are trying to help me deal with all of this. I'm a Christian, so some of my support system includes my pastor and small group leaders. They are the people that one of the insiders reached out to, so I figure they must be safe.

Why do I have no recollection of things said during these times? There are those within me who come "up" or "out" or whatever and share information. Apparently one even operates her own email account. I kind of feel "ganged up" on, you know?

Is there a trick to knowing who is there? How many? How do you know when someone else is coming "out" to talk and can you prevent it?

My T says to quit worrying and take it one day at a time. I expected him to give me some meds or something, but he says meds are not the answer.

What is?

(((((((((( Gracey ))))))))))))

Hang in there, therapy is the way forward. It will take time but it is possible to get to the point of being aware of which part of you is 'upfront.'

It's not something that can be hurried or forced but true healing can take place.

In the meantime you could try writing things down at home, or drawing can help to.

Take care.

Gracey I also journal and can read what others write. It has helped me meet some of them. It does take time and it sounds like you have a caring therapist. I know how concerning it can be and I hope you continue to use your support system including here if you want. Please take care.

BB

Welcome Gracey,
It's hard for sure. I agree with your T about taking it one day at a time. Some days, I have to take it minute by minute.

Unfortunately there are no meds to take away dissociation, but I do think that sometimes meds can help with depression and anxiety which in turn might help a body not get so overwhelmed and triggered that they dissociate? I'm not positive on that though as I don't take any meds.

I never know which part of me is active when I am gone. As you get stronger and more able to cope, hopefully you will dissociate less. I'm glad you have a therapist to help you through this. Welcome to Psych Central.

one day at a time, one minute at a time... even one second at a time if you need it.

Things will get easier eventually if you just keep working at it. And I too suggest journaling.

I don't have any control over when I dissociate and which alters come out. My therapist says that the one that comes out for me is whatever matches what upset me so the way to control my DID is to find out what kinds of things I hate, don't like, get upset with and stuff like that and then do something that will make me feel better when this happens.

The way my therapist and I are figuring out what alters I have is by looking at my artwork and finding names in them of who I am when I draw them. We also do the book amongst ourselves which has some stuff in it that helps me figure things out.