What....

What triggers your "angries" or your "littles"?

have you tried working on or changing any of this in therapy?

I used to take an instant dislike to some people... I projected stuff onto them I suppose, and then they became that "bad person" .. Few can tolerate so much dislike

I guess this is mostly for those in the USA as I doubt many in the UK have had enough therapy to complete healing. If this is possible?

Or is it just me? Am I such a terrible person I'm the only person in the UK who deserves no "help"? or who deserves the sledgehammer type of "help" of being labelled and ..... further abused..... After being asked if "she" has a name?

can you forgive your primary abusers? Sometimes I think I have but then I realise I'm still triggered back by .... Stuff

Sorry about this post, I "should" probably delete it .... One thing he got right was that the father would reject "her" yet again

Thank you for sharing. ((((FUZZYBEAR))))

Injustice and personal attacks ignites the fire of The Angry One. My littles are under protection, they are small and scared.

I've always been a good judge of character...I can read people and predict what they will do.
I've seemed help and have been denied. My present pdoc just wants to write scripts and push you out the door. We don't like her, so we've decided to just not talk to her hardly anymore.

You are not a terrible person.

My abusers were my parents, we do not talk to the father figure, but mom is mom. There are a few that really don't like her even though we do communicate some what weekly. I can feel grumbling and negativity in the spirit when on the phone. Pure forgiveness, I don't think so because as of now, my life was ruined by it.

I hope you find your peace and some happiness.

the future.

it's so empty and uncertain, it just gets us all in to an argument, and then triggered because none of us like to think about it- and what might (or might not), happen

family too

and fire. (something passific to us)

oh

and the mention of a certain state in america..

Our Protector has a temper. She's triggered when my mother (our abuser) upsets me. She usually takes control when memories surface, either because someone on the inside (our negative alter) has spitefully shared a memory she shouldn't have. And if something triggers us from the outside.

Our Angry one is triggered by any mention of abused women, children and animals. This can be in the form of the news on tv or radio, or in TV programmes. It's one of the reasons I had to stop watching CSI. It's easy to control what we see on TV. We usually stick to cartoons. The radio part is difficult, because we travel in a liftclub, and the news is on morning and afternoon.

Our littles are triggered by: colouring books, crayons, cartoons, puppies, horses. They don't come out often, but they tend to want to converse when I see the things I've mentioned.

Hope this helps.

The sound of people eating - I can't stand it. I either cry or get fuming angry. Its a nightmare, and effects my entire life. My T knows I have this, but we haven't discussed it much. (Thats my choice, I don't discuss any of this stuff with him).

Im UK based, and pay for my own therapy - Nothing they offered on the NHS was any use for me. It was all CBT based, which just isn't effective with me.

I want to be able to forgive the primary abusers - I certainly have it in me to forgive them. But what I can't forgive, is that they never apologise. They never change. Their attitude towards me never changes. If they were to apologise, and seek help to change their behaviour, I would instantly forgive them and do everything in my power to support them. But they don't want that. Its easier for them to lose me from their lives, than to deal with their issues and change their behaviour.

I'm GLAD you didn't delete it
Oh all sorts of things trigger.... the seat belt of the car, people in the store, noises, smells, specific sounds, mom, certain words - all the regular ptsd stuff.
We also can take instant dislikes to people. It happens. I think that gut sense is there for a reason. I do try to not put it on them, but if 22 swaps in, well.... it's pretty obvious. And with one of the littles biting when anyone comes too close.... yeah. THIS IS MY SPACE.
I'm just now back in with a therapist that might actually be able to DO therapy -first in 15 months (and 10 therapists). I'm starting to tell her little bits of info - see how she handles it - and she tells me how she would approach it.
I thought the UK was doing better on the therapy front than the US. :/
I get that often - does she have a name? (If you mean your littles or angries)... yes.... SHE DOES, and she will TELL you when she's READY. LOL.
Hiss.
I go through the 'go it alone' or 'keep trying to get help' query. Stuck with keep trying. Good thing, cuz now my superb psych nurse is quitting. After the 3rd I won't have any providers who actually know and understand DID or who know my system (unless she and I get accepted to a DID treatment trial we're working to get in to - hope hope hope).

I haven't forgiven my primary abusers yet.... or even the not-so-primary ones. I did find a moment of potential compassion for him once.... I saw he was hurting, too. But that's as close as I can get to 'forgiveness'. I guess I could call it 'acknowledgement'.

Lots of love to you and yours FUZZY!!!! (You've been on my mind today all day).