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Old Jan 05, 2016, 10:34 AM
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I made a long, drawn out post about this recently but I'm going to post about what I'm going through in a more general way in the hope that it will help you guys with giving feedback! Also, my other post was about one specific incident and it definitely happens more than once!
I am really struggling now with severe anxiety and OCD over episodes of false memories.
Example: Yesterday when I was brushing my hair I had a vague recollection of someone telling me I had a lot of split ends and needed a hair cut. I got a hair cut not too long ago, and don't have any split ends, so I knew it couldn't be true. But it felt like a real memory, like any old regular memory I have.
These experiences can happen to me up to 10 times a day and 99% of the time are just about little things like the example above that don't really matter too much. The memories just pop into my mind and usually I am able to know right away if they happened or not, but a few I don't know about
Like I said, it causes me A LOT of anxiety when this happens, and the more I worry about it, the more it happens. Sometimes my compulsions will take over and I will spend hours trying to find ways to validate if a memory I'm struggling with is true, which makes me feel even worse. There was one where I had recalled seeing the inside of a burning house and it felt like I was remembering a scene in a video game or movie. I watched a bunch of movies and went through a lot of video games looking for a scene that it could have been and never found anything, but felt crazier knowing that I spent hours trying to "prove" the memory one way or another, when it could have been something from a dream or even just a random thought.
I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me, because I usually have always had a good memory. I feel so much anxiety when I get one of these "memories", and really don't know how to respond to them besides assuming that a psychotic break is in my near future and just freaking out about it.
Does this sound like a type of psychosis? I don't have any other psychotic symptoms that I'm aware of. I know I have OCD, anxiety, and some depersonalization due to living with the chronic anxiety.
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Old Jan 05, 2016, 03:25 PM
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I'm not really sure what to say other than I have memories that surface that are triggered which means that they can be repeat memories from the same repeated triggers. Some memories are firsthand actual experiences, or maybe secondhand memory based on something that I've seen, heard, felt, or it's a flashback to an others memory.

I actually pay them a moment of thought and then think nothing of it anyways. When and if I start having seizures will I start worrying about a bigger brain defect then I presently have.

Have you posted in the bipolar and skitzo forums? There psychosis runs rampant at times and may be better answered. Dissociation is not a psychotic event because reality stays intact....it's just detached.

Have you a mental health care pro to talk too? It kinda sounds like you are worried about becoming psychotic which might be making you stressed out. Being psychotic is more of a delusion, the believing in things that aren't real with all your senses. Anything unreal coming from the brain I would classify as hallucinations or visions. Everything else I would just call a vivid imagination or memory.

I hope you find your answers.
Thanks for this!
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Old Jan 05, 2016, 04:20 PM
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I cant say whats what in your location but if I had wrote what you did and printed it off and given it to my treatment providers they would tell me that what I was perceiving as false memories is called having delusions and hallucinations.

the reason my treatment providers would call it hallucinations and delusions in me is because the definition of this is having thoughts and images that come from no where that can not possibly be real.

a memory even false memory has a realness behind it either the emotion that the memory is real or a treatment provider or other person has coached that person into thinking something happened when it didnt or the person is purposely making up stories and fake memories to impress someone or they have a mental disorder called... fictitious disorder imposed on self.

my suggestion is since these memories can not possibly be real for you in any way and are coming to you out of the blue to contact a treatment provider (doctor, therapist, psychiatrist) that can diagnose this problem and get you treated for it.

unfortunately we can not tell you what this is with in you, only what this is with in our selves. in me it would be called psychosis (having hallucinations, having delusional thoughts)
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