[finding_my_way]

feeling like my feelings are being hijacked. by this, i mean i know how i generally feel. there are layers of things including feelings underneath me/my feelings that are taking over and affecting me and causing a lot of confusion and disruption as well as severe depressive episodes that seem to last a few hours then lessen again that takes over my entire body. it's unsettling because i know it's not 'just' depression, and i know it's not 'me' that is where it starts from..it's from inside, very deep..and all of this has been increasing over the last few days/weeks. doesn't seem to be much consistency except for a day or two and then something changes again.

[finding_my_way]

think more things are coming together. i hope so anyway. it feels like things are shifting. i had something familiar come up that i don't know when or what it was..was almost like a black out for a few seconds when this particular thing came up. i don't know what was familiar or what it was though which is...confusing.

[1976kitchenfloor]

I send you my support and hugs. Life can be so overwhelming. It will settle down. Get some rest and take good care of your essential needs. things can so easily spiral out of control if we dont make an actual effort to work towards some stability. I think we forget that a lot fo things we do .how we react etc are learned and become habits. soemtimes we have to sit down and figure out what is important and what can slide. sometimes we need to see if ther are different things we can do -learn new hanits and behaviors in order to get better control over our lives.

You take care and be good to yourself.

[finding_my_way]

Originally Posted by 1976kitchenfloor

I send you my support and hugs. Life can be so overwhelming. It will settle down. Get some rest and take good care of your essential needs. things can so easily spiral out of control if we dont make an actual effort to work towards some stability. I think we forget that a lot fo things we do .how we react etc are learned and become habits. soemtimes we have to sit down and figure out what is important and what can slide. sometimes we need to see if ther are different things we can do -learn new hanits and behaviors in order to get better control over our lives.

You take care and be good to yourself.

thanks. i have been doing what i can to take care of myself, but it has been difficult. because things have been so confusing, i cannot keep track of things as well and am not leaving the house as often as i used to..but i am not realizing it because of the amount of confusion.

i am doing ok with sticking with a daily routine, sleep routine, and other things. so, those are essential for me to have some kind of stability..though it doesn't really help for the internal things as much as i hoped.