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after much searching i know where she is .. while meditating on this i heard one tell me that she is still inside but she cant get out because depression is to big for her to get through it is taking all the space. this is what i heard.

[pegasus]

It is good that you have some communication.

Carry on with the meditation, difficult to do at times I know.

Maybe writing will help to?

Hope you have a T to share what is going on.

Take care.

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we do not have a T or pdoc anymore.

[kimmydawn]

Oh, that it wonderful!!!

Well, it's not all wonderful, but I think you know what I mean...you know she's there and you have a place to start.

Can you set a time just for her and let it be known it's for her and her alone? A quiet place stating that it's a place for joy and peace-making if she'll come?

You might have to do it several times but it's worth a try?

Thanks for letting us know!

KD

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been trying to that all day today . depression has her locked inside. she cant get out. she may never get out. did you know depression is big , very heavy and black? . i know she is behind it so when depression moves out of her way i will see her again. maybe she is not so strong anymore i have never known anything to stop her before.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((Free1)))))))))) I'm glad you at least have discovered why that part is not available. I think it's wonderful that you have that much communication. I never know what part is out and often don't know I am gone unless something happens or someone says something to clue me in.

I used to think that I had no communication at all, but have recently realized that I do get fed information sometimes that I might need for a conversation, etc. I think I've spent so much time ignoring the different parts of self that it's really a struggle to try to pay attention now. But when I do, I do find out information to help put the pieces together.

I often feel like a private detective sometimes, trying to find out my own stuff.

Good luck to you.

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((Wanttoheal))
well ... i had a good therapist that helped me first get to know who is inside ..that has been about 7yrs ago.
I have an understanding now of who they are. i am aware of a couple of them when they are out but not others..i havent reached that point yet. I cant control them however they come out when i least expect them..and sometimes i lose minutes - hours - full days - years. i am unable to talk to them ..i can hear them tell me things though occasionally . never sat and had conversations with them or anything like that - i just know who is out sometimes by the after fact - like if something is said that i dont remember saying - i can pretty much know who said it by the contents of words. i listen very hard inside - meditate - try to hear what is going on in my head - sometimes i can hear but not always. it is very hard to explain - i can almost see them sometimes. I am not there yet as far as communication but one day i will. i can definatly tell when one is missing ..only had that happen recently within the past year and it scared me! Doesnt mean i understand why that happened though. i just know she is still there.
hope this helps . good luck on your journey

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ps ...
i havent reached the children yet although i know they are there. i dont know if i am ready to hear their stories ..scares me to much to find out. i hear ppl talk about them alot - i am totally to scared to find out what happened to them. cuz i dont think i could take it.