part of me is missing

I figured out a little bit why I am so sad and depressed when my children aren't with me, but with my ex. I have been divorced since 10/03, have shared parenting of my 13yr old twins, but the days they are not with me are getting harder to live through. See, all there lives I have been there 24/7, they were the reason for getting out of bed everyday. I gave my all to them, and they were my only reason for living life. Now they are with me only half of the time. When they are gone, part of me is gone. I feel empty, alone, guilty for the divorce, how can I live on the days they are not with me? I hate this pain, I wish it would go away................... 13 yrs. ago I lost a 3yr old daughter due to a housefire. It feels like the same pain.
Thanks for listening

I'm lost for words, but I am sending you thoughts of healing and hope you can get to talk with a counselar.
I am so sorry to hear of your pain and saddness the loss of a child is devastating, but try to console yourself with the fact your other children, though you do not see them as much as before, are still here and you need to still be here in their lives, I too live only for my child, he is my whole life, and I will not go into my story but please know that you are part of your children's lives, and you all need to carry on for each other's sake, this is love, and you need to be not so hard on yourself, you are human, you have a heart, you feel, you've been hurt and through some very tough times, but please seek professional help with this, you and your kids are worth it, you owe it to yourself, with professional help I feel things can work out in time.
Please take care now,

DE

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SOLON

I am sorry also for your pain. I do understand how it feels to lose a child (although not through death, but just as permanent). I have one son now and he is my life. He fills some of the void that was left behind.

Try to hang in there for your twins. They need you very much - no one can replace you.


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