I have ptsd and need to see a therapist thst deals with trauma, My problem is I space out all the time, I will go on these throwing away sprees and not remember that I did it, It is like I am in a black out even though I am fully concious, People will tell me things in my past that I do not remember" But at the same time I dont feel like I have multiple personalities or could I an it not be that noticeable, I am very confused about every thing in my life right now

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Rainne

I have ptsd and need to see a therapist thst deals with trauma, My problem is I space out all the time, I will go on these throwing away sprees and not remember that I did it, It is like I am in a black out even though I am fully concious, People will tell me things in my past that I do not remember" But at the same time I dont feel like I have multiple personalities or could I an it not be that noticeable, I am very confused about every thing in my life right now

we cant diagnose\tell you what is going on with in you. what I can do is tell you in my location having "black outs" is not considered a dissociative problem.

here in my location dissociation is a reaction to a trigger...something happens to cause a person to feel numb, spaced out, disconnected and have memory problems. they dont just suddenly black out and start throwing things away and not remember doing it.

let me give you a few examples of what dissociation means in my location...

sometimes when I dont get enough sleep i feel like I am not all there, a drugged like feeling or waking up only half way. (this is normal dissociation)

sometimes at work when I get stressed out (trigger) I start feeling flat, numb emotionless (this is normal dissociation)

sometimes when my wife and I are traveling and we havent had a break \rest stop the movement of the car and passing scenery (trigger) makes me feel numb, flat, spaced out (this is normal dissociation)

if you were here in my location in order for what you posted to be called dissociation there would have to be a trigger that caused you to feel numb, spaced out, disconnected.

you can read about what dissociative amnesia (not remembering things) is in my location is with in the links at the bottom of my post.

what else I can tell you is that here in my location we have many mental, physical and normal things that can cause a person to do things that they dont remember doing. if you google this you will find millions upon millions of medical\physical, mental and normal things this can be.

again we cant make a diagnosis we can only post what things would be if in our own locations. to find out why you "blacked out" and threw things away and not remember doing so you will have to contact your own treatment providers (your own doctors, therapists, psychiatrists...) your treatment providers can help you sort things out so that you are not so confused about what is happening to you.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Rainne: Sorry you're feeling so confused. The Skeezyks certainly knows how that feels! Hope you get to see that therapist soon...

[Fuzzybear]

[Lost_in_the_woods]

Depending on where you live, look online for Ts or clinic who specialize in trauma, then try to find some reviews or ask around if anyone in your area has any knowledge of their reputation. Good Luck!

[vonmoxie]

You're on the right track! I think it's essential to work with someone who specializes in trauma-related disorders; it's been my sad experience that those who don't (and there are many) are viewing our situations through a lens that just doesn't lend itself to being able to help or even understand really.

No need to worry much about diagnoses, since there's no medical cures for trauma-related disorders anyway! Not PTSDs and not dissociative. Just focus on finding someone who has an ability and interest in being understanding and empathetic to what you're going through, who might be able to help you work through the effects you're experiencing.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by Rainne

I have ptsd and need to see a therapist thst deals with trauma, My problem is I space out all the time, I will go on these throwing away sprees and not remember that I did it, It is like I am in a black out even though I am fully concious, People will tell me things in my past that I do not remember" But at the same time I dont feel like I have multiple personalities or could I an it not be that noticeable, I am very confused about every thing in my life right now

A lot of disorders include dissociation as a symptom - including BPD and depression.

Honestly - I have learned to treat my dissociation separately from the rest, but first you have to recognize it before you go into it full blown. I use cedarwood essential oil to help me but others do other things.

After I address my dissociation and it is no longer something that is worrisome, I figure out what caused it and address that in an effort to figure out how to sort things out so it doesn't keep happening - but when things start getting overwhelming, stop. Do some relaxation techniques and revisit the problem after you are calmed again. After some time and lots of work, you can sort it through.

*hugs*