feeling a little better this afternoon.

I watched mistletoe over manhattan

such a lovely uplifting movie

[Wild Coyote]

Doing my daily walks in places where I interact with lots of people. While feeling a bit guarded at times, getting familiar with the people working at the mall, etc, has helped to keep me more grounded. Encountering the busy atmosphere on a regular basis has made it more comfortable (less triggering) for me.


WC

we had that age old issue today.

thought it was a diffrent day to what it actually was

thought it was friday

we're not too bad other than that, but it's always so freaky when that happens

feeling a mix of emotions today.

happy and relieved- we actually got a company to finally sort out a technical problem we were having (after spending 2 hours online to them last night, only to be told they can't do anything), so in that respect, we're actually pleased

but we did have more memories of our family today, and that's always nasty

dang the music for the 5th demention too. go to hell

[Aardwolf]

Slept in a chair last night for 2 hours and then crashed the work vehicle today..
Today is not good.

yesterday, a tv channel over here were going to do a live show.. the musical hairspray

we planned to watch it, get a takeout in, get some drink, and enjoy 2 hours of live performing

what we ended up doing was missing hairspray, getting sucked up in to the 5th dimention, talking to someone about it for a bit, then losing time
not a brilliant night

today.... well, no sleep last night, breakfast eaten and dressed by 5 A.M, still hearing the music from the blasted 5th dimention, and can barely find much reason to be here

accept for the fact that I can eat exactly what I want, when I want, and I am binging

We ranted earlier....but actually got to sleep the rest of the day. Now drinking our 3rd beer but need to get more. Tried the epilator on our face- ouch.

We let Barbie (our twin) have her fun the other night and our body is very sore and tired since.

Thinking Chinese take out.

[Luce]

I am freaking out about ex T sharing info with new T. Ex T is writing out information to share with her this weekend.
New T isn't aware of the extent of our crazy. I don't think I am aware of the extent of our crazy. Ex T has shouldered our crazy for years. I don't want ex T to tell new T how crazy and screwed up we are. I just want to be normal.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

We ranted earlier....but actually got to sleep the rest of the day. Now drinking our 3rd beer but need to get more. Tried the epilator on our face- ouch.

We let Barbie (our twin) have her fun the other night and our body is very sore and tired since.

Thinking Chinese take out.

chinese takeout

MMM that sounds wonderful. we've not had one since our real birthday

(we didn't even have one on our prefered birthday, dang!)

we used to do it all the time... now we're in to ordering pizzas

having more memories (this time surrounding religion), well at least it's not the 5th dimention

struggled to do much last night, 1 moment we were with it and knew what was happening, next we didn't and felt completely disorientated

no sleep

today our only real plan is to continue binging.
we just have so much junk food round us, we can't resist

[Lost_in_the_woods]

It's snowing!!!

[Lost_in_the_woods]

Sorry I forget to say hello right
Hello! My name is Celeste.

we're going over what we are going to say in the meeting friday (the meeting we are having about our family still trying to contact us)

we are taking it to the top manager, and we are a little anxious about facing the management- but we know we have to do this!

we are good, apart from the no sleep

celeste, that's awsome about the snow!.

are you going to build a snowman?

[Lost_in_the_woods]

Ok. At least I know why I woke up with ridiculous makeup on today! (LOL) and all my fancy party dresses all over the floor.. I love you, Celeste...don't worry I'm not mad...just please try to clean up after yourself, next time

Must have turned to rain be there is no snow on the ground. I am not a fan of snow anyways. Lots of stuff to get done today....hope I can manage to keep it together...just breathe♦

Somebody has been busy on this account today...yesterday?

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Somebody has been busy on this account today...yesterday?

I hate that.

it's happened to me loads of times where their have been posts made at times where I wouldn't come on myself, and I have no idea who posted them.

ugg

I hope you figure it out

well

we last visited at 6 58 PM yesterday (certainly wasn't me, so want to find out which one of us used the account)

yesterday was all blurry and ugg (we only remember tiny bits)

no sleep

today feeling extremely thirsty (who ever was out didn't make sure we drank anything, ugg), but not bad emotion wise

Everythings different. Talk to yall later.

we're still alive why?
got up after no sleep, ate breakfast, wasted our day and now it's half 5 in the evening

why are we alive. we don't know

starting to actually envy stacy. at least she's clued up on what she wants to do

had the age old problem today of mixing up the days

spent a good majority of the morning thinking it was wednesday (not just thought, positively convinced)

on the trail of our christmas cd which 1 of the alters hid (we think it's strange that we're not actually playing it)

watched some commedy special this afternoon which was average

that's all

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

we're still alive why?
got up after no sleep, ate breakfast, wasted our day and now it's half 5 in the evening

why are we alive. we don't know

starting to actually envy stacy. at least she's clued up on what she wants to do

Omg I'm like you....why?

Sometimes I envy skitzophrenics or downs syndrome folks because it's like a concrete acceptable condition and some fixable with a pill....sad.

We live with sui thoughts because: A) body dysphoria. B) aware of condition. C) social reject. D) abused life......but some of the Others keep us alive.

So....we are destined to endure our despair and simmer in our self-loathing to natural death we part.

Sorry so morbid.....but Death I welcome thee open arms but denied meeting you by the sick Others that persist in prolonging hell from relief.

[Lost_in_the_woods]

I'm freakin out! Sum1 tell me whts goin on pleez!!!

how many memories of family can you deal with in the space of a few hours

that's our question... this morning is terrible for family memories (well it was, it's sort of calmed down now but still)

speaking to 1 of your mom's x boyfriends at 8 A.M this morning is weird.

we still didn't hear back from that guy who we were worried about who went to a psych appointment (spiritual forum), god, that's 2 weeks without him checking in. we're going to try emailing again today

binging a lot- but then it's christmas, what else is to be expected?

very depressed- but not suicidal

our meeting yesterday started bad, we actually buckled under pressure (the fact that 1 of the top managers were sitting with us freaked us, and we had a quiet word with someone and they made him leave), but we suppose it was okay.. just the usual stuff discussed really

we did get angry at some point because 1 of the people blamed D.I.D on us and we're like you have absolutely no idea what we've been through, so just shut up.

but we explained they are still trying to make us leave the country and they are concerned, but said their's very little they can actually do- but they are working it.

confusing.. but oh well.

no sleep since we last posted here

long post?

(yes this is a very long post)

[Lost_in_the_woods]

Ugh. Shattered feel you on the sleep depro, non existent appetite, and the horrible inevitably of family gatherings of any kind...it's always just a matter of time before someone throws the MI card at us and edging toward the door while the blame games and finger pointing commences! Just awful...why does someone always gotta go there?!