[just2b]

Deleted....changed our minds

Originally Posted by just2b

Deleted....changed our minds

((((((((hugs)))))

we're sorry you don't feel you can post what ever it is

maybe in the future if you're up to it

[elevatedsoul]

i hope you doing ok just2b... stay strong...

[just2b]

Dissociative always .... decision so erratic...mood too...house should not get buy stuck now.. ride from hell coming ...stuck in time when bad happen..not see today as is...images of mind blend into what eyes see or what hands touch...and images of mind win....only get worse later when in house.. house ...no house stress anyway not present to much...T reject hug . .not talk to her about it...cause lots of conflict with parts...protector lie to her day it not an issue...not get over it...just feel .. reject.
Distract by other thing ...have job for 2 day and quit...now
No eat and be in bed....chronic pain wish sleep more...oh well....just some one want to say...no others will....

[Luce]

Take care... be safe... find comfort.

[L.P.]

Hope you feel better. Maybe puppy can help.

[Lost_in_the_woods]

(((HUGS)))
Hope you feel better soon

[Lost_in_the_woods]

I don't know who I am now.

[just2b]

So dissociative...it's getting worse. Losing hrs and think soon days...an weeks into months...no end in sight...try to anchor to present, try to tell self adult now, nothing. Buy house and try to work, and meet prospect friend for coffee, get stood up by another, and at time T rejected request for hug, and arguing with ex, all happen at once and suddenly can't stay focused for a moment. Dissociative, so tiring. Exhausted. Not sure what will help get me out of here...feel at times parts of my mind are more important than me.
Feeling unreal at times...feel like a robot and being told what to do.
Not sure I will return ...it could be my last ....been away for months before...just not a good time with closing on house that is triggering stuff

[just2b]

Session...no idea what happened. I woke up in her second office ( just a sofa) only to leave at 230m...appt 11-1230...then thought went to eat lunch and do some errands, only to find I woke at 5 pm in her parking lot. From Monday til even as I write keep feeling so dissociative. Will start a job tomorrow, closing on a home in 3 weeks, moving, ..no idea if this is all too much. House I know is triggering...work was in the past, same type of job, and moving last year almost ended me in hospital. T was close to bringing me to hospital today. I feel myself drifting off even right now...why? I keep asking why to parts of my mind but there is no answer or sense of anything until I wake hours later and don't remember a thing. Feel i need or should say something to T...but there really is nothing...it feels like a nagging urge. She has assured us so many times things are good, and okay, but feel it's not enough...I tell parts the same. It's like parts do not want to hear it....what do you do?? Feel stuck and hopeless.

[lucidity11]

Originally Posted by just2b

Session...no idea what happened. I woke up in her second office ( just a sofa) only to leave at 230m...appt 11-1230...then thought went to eat lunch and do some errands, only to find I woke at 5 pm in her parking lot. From Monday til even as I write keep feeling so dissociative. Will start a job tomorrow, closing on a home in 3 weeks, moving, ..no idea if this is all too much. House I know is triggering...work was in the past, same type of job, and moving last year almost ended me in hospital. T was close to bringing me to hospital today. I feel myself drifting off even right now...why? I keep asking why to parts of my mind but there is no answer or sense of anything until I wake hours later and don't remember a thing. Feel i need or should say something to T...but there really is nothing...it feels like a nagging urge. She has assured us so many times things are good, and okay, but feel it's not enough...I tell parts the same. It's like parts do not want to hear it....what do you do?? Feel stuck and hopeless.

Sometimes explaining to parts helps them to answer your questions. I have learned not everyone knows if we are in a bad way or that things are happening that are causing us to dissociate. I have asked my parts "whats the problem? Why are we feeling this way?" Some of them have no idea what I am talking about. So if I remember I will sometimes explain what I am feeling, like fear, confusion etc, than ask if anyone knows why. Most times I will get a response from who ever is feeling fear or who ever is feeling confusion. It helps calm things down a little. I have to do it often and sometimes who ever is out doesn't think to ask in such a way. But try it. Even if it helps a little it's good.

[just2b]

Good idea about asking about the feeling that you maybe aware of...when ask about why this or that has happened no one part comes forward, but I can get a better idea of what's going on if I ask why do I feel a sense of xyz...or who knows about feeling xyz.
Thanks