Disociation: Can anyone help me out here?

the ohter day I went to say bye I love u to my sister and instead I spaced out for a little while and it was like something clicked and I came out of it. I had written hope you and yours have a happy very merry christmas. There have been other times where I will be having a conversation with someone and say something that is totally out of no where, has nothing to do with anything like talking about how things are going and in the midst of me talking I'd say something like the frog jumped out of his tank today and I don't have a frog or a tank or anything like that. In the past I have chalked it up to being tired and that I need to sleep but this seems to be getting more frequent and what not. It scares me because I'm not myself I guess or feel like I'm not. I space out and not aware of it until someone tells me about it afterward. It scares me because I think well what else am I doing that I don't know about or what am I capable of maybe like cutting myself or taking some pills or something. I think that's kinda how I may have od ed earlier this year; I took a bottle of tylenol not thinking about anything in particular got up when everyone was sleeping and did that. So I dunno I guess I just would really like to know what's going on with me. I tried getting ahold of my pdoc but he's out this week. I called my reg doc and someone was supposed to talk to the pdoc covering. Anyway in conclusioin made a lot of phone calls. Very anxous and nervous but I have an appointment with another pdoc who I was able to get into see; actually it's a previous pdoc I had so atleast I know him and hopefully things will go well. My meds are as follows: lithobid, lisinopril, atenelol, pepcid, seroquel, effexor, trilafon, artane, ortho novum, and most recently added valium (I was experiencing such events prior to taking the valium). My diagnoses are also as follows: borderline personality disorder, schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, chronic trauma syndrome, panic, and features of OCD. Thought the extra info couldnt hurt so I included it. If anyone could shed some light or just show some support it would help immensly. Thanks all.
Danielle

It think maybe you are right about it being dissociation. Its common; however, if you feel its bothering you, I think its good to talk to the T about. They can assess how much is impairing your daily life.

That sounds really scary. Hope your docs can help. I identified with your frog-jumped-out-of-his-tank-today story; for many years I felt compelled to think/ask "Guess what we did in French today?" when I hadn't had a French class for many years and we never did anything noteworthy when I did :-) But I kept the situation in the back of my head and worked on it like it was a "clue" and eventually figured a few things out about myself and what was happening in my life in the year(s) when I did have French and my wanting to get my stepmother's attention, etc. A lot of these things are symbolic I think and can be looked at like one does one's dreams. Any hurtful behavior like your Tylenol action needs to be stopped though, like one would want to stop sleep walking! Don't know how one does that.

I find it disturbing because I wouldn't want to self injure and be unaware of it you know? That is my biggest fear. I'm quite worried about seeing the pdoc tomorrow. I really don't want to be admitted if he's just trying to cover his own @ss, u know? I find it weird that these moments or whatever you would like to call them some of them are totally nonexistent; the frog thing I made up to illustrate my point but their have been times for example when I told a friend that I had sex with this guy and this girl went and got some oil. Well, I did have sex with this guy, but there was no one else around; it was just us and I don't fantasize about threesomes or women or anything like that. I know I should tell the pdoc everything but that example is kinda well very personally embarassing. I also was asked by the person who set up the appointment for tomorrow if I had done any drugs and I honestly said I don't know. I don't think she bought it, but I can't say for sure if I did or not. I suspect they'll want to probly do a drug screen; so, I'm glad my family isn't bringing me; it's my case manager.