[elevatedsoul]

i cant do this.... please make it stop...
i just want to disapear

[yagr]

I so hope it gets better soon.

[elevatedsoul]

thanks

grr... i try so hard to do the things that my therapist says to try but they dont help very much while im in the process of breaking down

yesterday was just so wack... i thought i was doing ok but i guess it was all just an act and towards the end of the day i just couldnt do it anymore...

atleast i was able to be a good boy while around people and made it to late enough where i could hide in my bed and pretend to sleep

[Skeezyks]

[Luce]

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

thanks

grr... i try so hard to do the things that my therapist says to try but they dont help very much while im in the process of breaking down

It is so hard in the beginning of sorting through all the stuff. It can take a long long time before one gets to a place of being able to use grounding skills effectively all the time (or even some of the time). Don't give up on them and don't be hard on yourself when you try and it just doesn't work. One day all those times you tried will have made a difference and it will work. Right now you are doing the best you can with what you've got. Just hang in there, and look after you as best you can today.

[Lost_in_the_woods]

(((HUGS E.S.)))
For all of us who are on a road to self discovery...it is not a pleasant jaunt in a pretty meadow, that's for sure..it's more like getting physically sucked into the pgs of The Divine Comedy. but regardless of all the trials and tribulations we encounter...I think people like us would be in much greater agony if we tried to be like those we think maybe we envy..do you know what I'm saying?.. I look at people who are able to go thru life as if they have blinders on. They just keep moving forward accomplishing one thing after another as it presents itself. The same dance day in day out. They never appear to question the nature of their existence, where they fit in the larger picture (or if they do at all?)..and they never seem to grasp themselves as more than face value. I look at people like this and I feel a tinge of jealously..for the possibility of a one minded black and white view...but then I realize that's not who I am..and whatever I am...I'd rather be me, than to never even question or examine what resides inside. Bc I think it would feel empty...and if a person like that were ever to see beyond and come face to face with a mind like yours or mine or anyone else here...I think they would literally die from the shock.. To seek is hard. To know (impossible as far as I can gather)...but to never even look..that sems,so sad to me.
Your path is not an easy one my friend, but it is the path of the courageous..the strong. - Holly