How "active" are your alters????

Do your alters.... try to live their "own" lives.... or do they get triggered and then they are "out".... do they try to set their own goals.. and what is important to them.. and then go about getting it...

so... are your alters out and about every day?????

wow! Learning that some of us are active much. Learning that I need to accept others too. Honestly I say yuk but know it is true that we should all work together.

freewill, I wish I knew but I have no awareness of my alters and no memory of what's happened afterward....just fear and confusion over lost time and wondering what happened when "I" was away.

yes... fear... and confusion....for host...

so sorry... should have explained that I am an alter...and when saying "I".... it was me.. an alter...

I have co-consiousness.. with some of the other alters.. My T... has pointed out to me several times.. that we are letting a 12 year old alter make some very grown up decisions..

Well... we as alters didn't realize that was happening... and it finally "sunk" in yesterday....

We... have a "12year old" at the helm... running some very important decisions in our life.. WOW... that scared the "pants" off of us - as the other alters... because we were so unaware this was happening...

and as my T has pointed out... that has to stop... I as an alter - have no idea yet how that is going to happen - the stopping.. but at least I am aware...

((((((((freewill))))))))

I know how scarey it is but you have all your friends here to help and support you.

Freewill, I understand you co-consciousness. I have one right now I fight because what she wants to do will get me into serious trouble. Another one is the suicide one, and one is the one that keeps us going. She usually comes out when therapy is a mess to tidy up. There is a man too but so far he just talks in my head, maybe a boy. He spoke during a bad flashback. It was a frightening flashback. I made myself leave the flashback before I saw everything. He spoke to me when I was thinking about something and he told me I was on the right track. He is a young man/boy. I am not sure of age. I am just not sure how many there are. This one that likes the bad stuff. I used to just leave and she did the stuff. Now that I am aware of her I don't always leave. Thank goodness this way I can fight her. But is SOooo hard. The other day we got into such a battle that I switch between her and me so many times I wound up passing out in therapy and then the play nice one came out to tidy up. I told T I did not think i even had a real me. I thought she had been killed off a long time ago. Does anyone else ever feel like that.
So right now mine are really active. Coming and going too much. And there are the little ones that don't talk, just make me sad. Some of them I think are too young to have much of a voice. JMHO


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