the mirror

Okay. I was in the bathroom earlier today and I glanced at myself in the mirror and I do not look like myself. AT ALL. I mean, I guess the basic outline of me is still there, but....I don't recognize the turn of the mouth and eyes, the length of the face, etc.

I just went back and looked. Same thing. Why do I look totally different today? Different in a really bad way, too.

Is this depersonalization or derealization or something? I don't know the terms.

I did have a T session that was BEYOND stressful and triggering yesterday. Thought I had it all contained today, but now, I'm not so sure, and I am literally terrified to go back into the bathroom to see who's in the mirror.

yeah - ignore the mirror. you're still you (some part of you). it is common in this spectrum for that to happen.

((((((em)))))))

this is scarey, sorry your terrified but ya like Kiya said: your still you; some part of you.*chanting that to myself to drill it in* I just look at one part of my face in the mirror to avoid panic attacks, is all i know i can do right now. I have this weird thing about water and temp. i'm fighting with atm, i turn on the tub to hot, jump in and it's relatively cool, not know, have to figure! Just i take a bath with my 1 year old son and it's spooky that i make such an uncomfortable bath for him, grrrr

(((((((((earthmama))))))))
Has this ever happened to you before? It sounds like depersonalization, which would be understandable if your last session with T was a tough one.

Hang in there. Hopefully things will calm down soon.

It has happened before. I go through long periods of not looking in the mirror but then it's okay again.

I'm a mess today. Too much was stirred up at T on Monday. I feel like I'll never feel okay again, but of course, I'm sure I will.

Do you journal? I find that journaling helps me get some stuff out of my head and can sometimes relieve the distress.

I'm sorry you're still feeling poorly today. Can you do something nice for yourself to soothe?

You're not alone ... I do this a lot .... and sometimes i say my name over and over and doesn't feel like me either ..... this has happened since i was a small child ..... i don't always see me when i look in the mirror

JIN