I feel frustrated and angry

Yes babies are different. YOu know,you can tell, you can see it in their eye, and FEEL it too. I think, that is why I had more trouble when the kids started falling into the teen years, they think and feel so many things, and i scared me thinks, Oh no, they'll know I fail sometimes and not love me but parts of me knows this isn't true either. Babies are so real, I even feel I can relate to them, from anger to happy in 0.01 seconds, sounds right to me. If you make them feel happy they smile, That is a sign adults don't have sometimes so you never know, they say it but they could be lying cause words don't work for me, much. If babies are sad they cry and you can see the uncomfort lift from them, when cuddled, can't see that so well with the older crowd, I'd have to think, Thinking Emotions doesn't work well with me either. If I can SEE em, I'm believing of them!

sometimes i think it would be so nice to go back to eing a baby when nothing matters, you dont know any different and daddy loved you ..... grandad loved you.

((((((((((((( jinny )))))))))))))))))))

Can you find a way to comfort your child....to accept your child as being a child, one who was hurt yet one who so much wants love and acceptance? Even if you, the adult are the only one who can love your child at this time, that would be a huge step in helping her feel better.

Even those of us who are not parted, yet believe in our inner child, need to nurture that inner child at times. Our inner children need to cry, need to speak, need to play and be silly sometimes. Our inner child needs to know they are accepted and loved and I wonder if that would work for you too?

Just some thoughts from someone who really doesn't know much but is trying to learn.


sabby

sabby it's new to me too ....i know she needs nurturing, i just find it so hard .... everything feels like a pity party, i am struggling with looking after me like everyone keeps telling me .... i've never been allowed to you see ... always een called selfish always .... so when people call me selfish now it kind of triggers .... i want to scream ITS MY TIME ..... I CAN LOOK AFTER ME FOR ONCE...... but i just feel so self centred every day, every week every month that goes by with this rot called depression ....... forever fighting with myself ..... guilt guilt guilt is all i ever feel .....

I miss having parents who care ..... but i never had that so how do i miss it ..... i see proud parents,my friends parents, and i wnat what they have .....

i'll shut up now .... sorry kx

(((((((((((((((((((((((jinnyann )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

It's hard to practice self-care when the people around us accuse us of being selfish. ESPECIALLY when we've never been cared for as a child or learned to practice self-care as an adult.

In moments when I'm feeling strong, I tell myself that this is something I deserve, just like everyone else does. And I remind myself that the people around me are used to me taking care of their needs, and are used to me not having any needs....so it is an adjustment period for me and for them.

It's hard, though. It's like fighting an uphill battle - when it's hard to care for ourselves anyhow, and then we have to fight other people to do it on top of it. Frustrating!

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( jinnyann )))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I hope you can do something nice for you today. I do try to do something nice for little me every day - it seems easier to take care of her. Yesterday we painted with watercolors. It was really fun - we may do the same today!

((((((((((((((((((earthmama)))))))))))))))))

i make cardswith pretty paper and glitter ....i love having a day near christmas to make family a card .... and i love writing too .....

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Jinnyann,

nobudy ever loved me, not mom,dad,jimmy,larry, nobudy. so sad inside me. why am i no good...why no love.

angry, angry big angry, want to hit but no one to hit but me. cut. wants to hurt me. no one left butme to hurt. im smallest. im not big enuf to love myself. i need subudy to love me big.

pixies is no good for nothing. mite as well be ded pixie. no, no, i not bad pixie, jus litle. im sorry i go bye now. leli an kiki

I love you all sweetie, giving you big huggies, i'm your friend, please come to me anytime ..... you are so worthy of love and affection, all of you ..... come sit with me a while .... we can play in the garden if you like love and cuddles, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

looking for the fairies i hid yesterday .... think i'll just sit under my tree and pretend to be invisible. So tired..... just ate chinese, not good, no self discipline...... ugh, so unhealthy..... want to sleep sleep sleep ....... my friends who post here i love you all ..... thankyou for being such great friends ..... big huggies to you all ...... i trust you more every day and that's so good .... so many i dont trust .... ty for showing me grown ups can be trusted ..... please never go

J/T me