I feel like if i did someting wrong a while ago, no matter what i do, the person or people i wronged will never forgive .... and it wasn't only me at the time, in fact it was both of us that were wrong .....

sometimes i feel like i am in the wrong and others tell me 'actually it wasn't all your fault' .... then i feel i have been manipulated, it hurts when people dont forgive .... especially when i didn't mean any harm in the first place .....

why do i let it bother me? Because the people involved are supposed to be into peace and forgiveness and love .....

do these people know how much they hurt by carrying this grudge on and on ??????

this is in real life btw ...... no one here ....... why do people say they are into all this if they blatently don't mean it

Maybe they have big issues themselves but would rather put the blame on people they know are vulnerable .... this is bullying IMHO

i know people here will say avoid these peole, but that's easier said than done ....

vent over, Jinny xx

[Fuzzybear]

[sabby]

I have a thought for you ((((((((((( jinny )))))))))))))))

Remember how it was mentioned that it's easier to give advice than to take it and apply it in our own lives? I've also found that it's easier for folks to give peace and love yet when something becomes a personal issue, it's hard for them to apply it as well. Not everyone that hurts us is out to do just that.....it may feel like it because it hurts so deeply, but most of the time, they are just trying to get by like the rest of us. We all make mistakes....sometimes we see them and take responsibility, sometimes we don't see them. It doesn't mean they are always out to hurt you personally.

Gentle
sabby

Sabby I so wish you were within grabbing distance lol .... you are so wise ... i want to squeeze some of that wiseness into me lol .... good job there is a pond between us tee hee

I know you are so right as usual ..... just me being me i guess

Love ya, Jin xoxoxoxoxoxo

[sabby]

(((((((((((((( cuddles jin )))))))))))))))))))

Hey, I know how these things can rattle around in your brain.....and before you know it, the pain is so large and hard to handle and you can go round and round with it, bringing more pain in as you circle. Gosh, been there and done that on many occasions myself! It's dang hard to get it out and make sense out of it at the same time. I'll do my best to help ya out girl....anytime Sending those vibes over the ocean....do ya feel em??


sabby

((((((((((((((((cuddles Sab)))))))))))))))))))))

I'm gettin em loud and clear hon ..... fact I jus fell off me chair they were so strong

see me on that there chair vibratin lmao ..... ((((((Sabby)))))

love Jin xoxoxoxoxoxo

(((((( Jinny )))))) No good with advice but I care.

((((((((((((((Griffe)))))))))))))))you are excellent with advice and I care about YOU too ..... calming cuddle from aunty Jin love you hon ..... xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox give your little ones a big cuddle from a friend across the pond ..... awww, I'd love to be able to cuddle y'all right now .... Jin xoxoxoxo

[thelostone]

hugs and good vibes coming your way.

and you are right, that is bullying. anyone can say they are into peace and forgiveness, it is the ones who show it that you can trust.

lost

[MINIME]

I know how that goes. I have offended people in my life and been very hurt by their reaction. Im a very gentle loving person and have never really hurt anyone on purpose. The last month or so i have been weeding people out of my life who have not been the best for me. No one here IRL. I decided that i will have people in my life who can love me. When there is love and trust then things can be worked out. If they cant then it wasnt a good relationship. I have been struggling with this. Im such a loving person but I have learned. Hope this helps it makes no sense to me as i read it but heck its written from the heart.
steph

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((minime)))))))))))))))))))))

I know you are a loving caring person your posts are always so supportive, i'm so glad i have you as a friend ....... i know i can hurt people, usually if they've said something to hurt me and i attack ... it's my defense mechanism ... i am working on controlling it

i would never hurt on purpose .... trouble with me is i want everyone to like me, and i know that's never possible in life ... so i have to learn not to be bothered about what people may say .... so hard .... Jin xoxoxoxoxo

[lashaine]

I know exactly what you are talking about. One of my alters came out on my Mom and said some pretty bad things. Or so I was told. I told my parents what was going on,I had not told them yet. Both of my parents told me I was telling lies and that I had gave them more trouble than my sister, who was an alcholic by age 14 and she would leave days at a time. They do not recognize that I have DID. I haven't heard or talked to them for a week. The only reason Mom called was to wish me a happy birthday and she told me She wished I had never been born. My Dad wrote me a letter and told me I was a liar. He never wished me a Happy Birthday. I've not talked to my sister in almost a month.
My t told me that I needed to not go home as much for a while because I needed to heal and I can't do that around my family. I hate to say this but my family are "unsafe people" and they trigger my alters. I do plan to go home for Thanksgiving because my son is down there. So far I only plan to go home three times a year unless there is an emergency or a death in the family. My family chooses to be this way and sometimes we have to go on and do what is best for ourselves. Even when my Mom talked to my T she told her that all I could do was lie. She said she didn't believe that I suffered from DID. I cried for a little time but I have come to realize that in order for me to heal I have to take my life from them and live it to the best of my ability. I am not going to be a victim by their hand. I am going to be a surviver. If you need to talk just let me know.

[lashaine]

One more thing, it is hard to stay away. Especially if it's family. I had to tell myself that it's time that u heal and that means staying away. My heart breaks because I want the love and support of my family. But I've had to face the fact that they are not going to be there. If u need to talk to someone just let me know.

(((((((((((((((((((lashaine)))))))))))))))))))))))

thankyou so much for understanding .... my dad has no idea what DID or dissosiating is, even though i gave him stuff to read ... he just doesn't give a %#@&#! .... it's nice to know i have people here that understand, even tho it's a horrible thing to suffer with .... you may pm me also anytime hon, thankyou so much, it's so ggod to meet and talk to eople who know ...

much love and care, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxo