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My name is Jacob. I am part of this system. I have been trying to figure out if I am an evil spirit. I know that is crazy sounding. However, I just needed to get it out there. Maybe I'm not alone in this feeling. I'm actually trying to change my ways so I don't hurt the body anymore or hurt anyone else for that matter. I am working hard.

hello jacob,

i just want to say i'm pretty sure you're not an evil spirit.

evil spirits don't try to change their habits.

it's a very good thing that you're working - by the way, how's your relationship with others in the system? communication-wise?


twilight

Not all that great. Most of them are very afraid of me. For good reason, I guess. I am not nice. Never have been. However, I have began talking to one of the hosts friends, Debbie. She has helped me see some "good". I am trying...

I KNOW all to WELL what is is that YOU are trying to SAY!!
I Feel I have an evil part to , SHE"S MEAN to the CORE!!
DON"T cross her or....
infact that is WHY i feel SO bad right now, fighting with her

I agree with twilight. You are not evil if you want to change things.

We all feel that way, at one time or another. I know i have days where i feel that way and i hate it.

I hope you can find some peace here at pc.

Welcome!

Colleen

dear jacob,

i sort of think that if you worry you may be evil that you probably are not an evil spirit.

recently i realized that EVERY part is ultimately doing something to help the person survive. even my denial parts that have caused me alot of hardships were doing what they did to help me survive. (i had abusers who said they would kill me if i talked at all and then hurt me to make sure i believed them) keeping me quiet, then, was keeping me alive. it sounds to me like you may be a protector part to help soulful girl.

however, more and more we are beginning to see that the jobs, ideas and beliefs may have to change if we are to get well and fully functional. i am seeingWE CAN DO THIS WITHOUT going to war on each other. as host i am opposing self-injury behavior and other harmful behavior, but i sure need help on the way we eat! we are killing ourselves with junk food, literally and i hate it. help!!!!!!!!!!! sorry, this thread is not about me.

also, i did have some evil contained inside due to the wicked spiritual practices of some of my abusers. there can be a need to get spiritual help sometimes.

it has been SO important and helpful to my whole systems of alters to begin to work together and to stop the fighting. fighting just depletes the energy we need to change and live better. anything you can do to help alters or systems work together is in everyone's best interests.

this is an important topic jacob, thank you for bringing it up!!!!

leslie and her pixies

(((((((((((((((Jacob)))))))))))))) I used to think I was possessed at one time. Thankfully T helped me see and accept that it was parts of my brain. T says all parts have a job and while sometimes it seems on the outside that a part might be doing destructive things, there are reasons why they do the things they do. Everything for us is about survival and there was a time that whatever was going on was to help us survive. You are as important as any other part and I'm so glad you are working hard at keeping the body safe. You are not alone. Welcome to PC.

what if we arn't evil at all ( wait I know we not evil, but the feeling) and we are just more perceptive than most? ya know?
k, please don't take wrong....just in weird reality( mean well)

I feel I have done an evil thing.....I thought, intensely, with anger, wanting to harm, people that have hurt _me_ with my book, this nurse has story, which i imagined to great detail and i do have the ability to perceive more to sense more to emulate more so imagined my 'message' getting out to those who once hurt me i think it was when i was twenty. i was hurt and wanted to inflict hurt. something is going here. i am sorry, sorry. evil that i am not and i did go tochurch and cry cry cry to get it out so perhaps at least i have spiritual protection now PC is changing right before my eyes what is this about junk food is it how i go out to eat every meal could that be it what SHOULD I be eating is it me that is evil?

jacob I'm sure you are not an evil spirit, you are someone who wants to get help. In my system they are 7. Which are unique and each wants to get help. You are in the same track. You are not alone in this. You are doing the correct tryng your best and worried not to hurt no one.

We are here for you

Edna

hey jacob,

i did some introspection whilst in bed last night, and in my system there's cassandra, who used to do a lot more of bad things when she wasn't in good terms with the others, and didn't feel safe in the surroundings. she's what they call a protector, i suppose.

well - turns out she's got some pretty important things she needs to say and we need to know, but couldn't say them because nobody was really listening, everyone was too scared.

we're still working on this issue, but maybe that's something for you to think about if you can relate.


twilight