[Rhapsody]

I ran into a high school friend that I had known from middle school (one of my top three best friends) and the meeting was like old family members that has not seen each other in twenty years (which is about the time since we have last seen each other) - We HUGGED, SMILED and LAUGHED, Talked a little, then we HUGGED, SMILED and LAUGHED again.

I was on my way to my sons birthday party so I gave her my phone number... excited and filled with awwwww of having this rare meeting after so long... she called me during her break at work, but I was not home so she left her cell number for me to get in touch with her (she said seeing me had made her day).

NOW the PROBLEM:

I was in heaven when I saw her face and when we hugged from the shear happiness of seeing such a good friend after so many years.... but now I (or one of them, not for sure) will not pick up the phone and call her - fear or some thing (idk) has over come one of us and I am sad that I will never know her now (my best friend from high school).

I WONDER... was it me or my main alter that was her friend? Carol or Carolyn

[Hunny]

Rhapsody,

Do sleep on it a few more days. She may show up yet.

Somebody recognized her too and loved it! Perhaps she'll nudge you to connect, yet. You might just have to discuss that the only way to do that is to use the phone. Remind her of her happy face and the lovely hugs.

You may be a little afraid what is going to happen next. My renewed school chum and I have watched a couple of movies together and that seems to take the pressure off who will show up at any given moment. It's been a challenge but worth it.

Ice

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((Rhapsody)))))))))))) That's great that you were reunited with an old friend. I agree about giving it some time. Maybe you can keep reassuring yourself that she is okay to talk to. Please keep us posted.

[Rhapsody]

Yes.... it was an AWESOME feeling to have seen this dear old friend again.... she was always there for me and helped me through a lot - when others had turned their backs on me when I became a statistic by being a pregnant teenager in my senior year she never did... she stood up for ME to the end.

I just dislike this part of having DID - the part where I am two sided on most things... like now I feel one force that wants her friendship so badly and then sadly I always feel the force that says "i dont need anyone & i want to be left alone to stay in my house" - *sad* - fear also lives in here some where, of what I do not know, people I guess from being home so long.

At the moment I am just having to sit back and wait for her to call me again.

[multipixie9]

Rhapsody, i lost all friendships from my past as my issues and depression caused me to isolate. I wish so much i could have some of them back and they are lost to me and i can't contact them - no way to do that. so... the reason i said that is to urge you to talk inside - if you can - and see if some of them will help you check this out for safety but not wait so long you lose her again and maybe forever.

I do not wish to pressure you, but some things are time sensitive and if the move doesn't happen in the time frame the opportunity is lost. i wish i could have kept up with a few precious people but i couldn't at the time.

I know you will figure out what is best for your group inside and out. HUGS,

leslie and pixies

[Hunny]

Yes, me too, I made some boos boos with other friends, so I guess I learned somethings for this time around. So far so good. I don't share all my issues with her. I try to keep in fairly lighthearted, trying to gain some trust.

Maybe if she notices something different about you (depending on who is out) you can keep in mind that everyone changes as they age and when they haven't seen each other for a long time no one really knows the reason for the change. Just have fun.

It appears you have people who are your friends here on PC but I know how nice it can be to have outside people too (even though it's not easy sometimes). Make the first visit really short. Be nice and expect her to be nice back. Keep positive and tell a joke or two! Sometimes I have a lot of nervousness around her for no reason that I know of. So, I try to breathe and look out the window at something and then get back as soon as I can.

All the best to you Rhap.

Ice

[turquoisesea]

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