Am I Making This ***** up?--Professional answer? No.

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Good thread.... I hope no one objects to me bumping it up......

Although I never thought I had this dx (BPD is more likely ... but w/o the "games" people with that dx are often accused of) I am still trying to make sense of things

Realised NOW I probably "shouldn't" have bumped this up

Was looking up/searching "attachment" and this was one of the hits and was also rather illuminating to me.

No hurt or offence intended to anyone.

With respect,
Fuzzy

PS All humans/bears make mistakes, right?

Thank you for bumping this up, fuzzy - I found it a helpful thread for where I am right now
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Realised NOW I probably "shouldn't" have bumped this up

Was looking up/searching "attachment" and this was one of the hits and was also rather illuminating to me.

No hurt or offence intended to anyone.

With respect,
Fuzzy

PS All humans/bears make mistakes, right?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> it is good to reflect upon what has transpired since end of Feb this year until Nov.

respect is always appreciated and treated with same in return.

no mistake we'd guess if dayzee's attachment of quotes download was helpful. some of those quotes were in a book just read. we're glad you found benefit from that.

good to see our levels of denial written out here with timestamps and dates that were printed out for journals. helpful to see how this issue returns during therapy and how it has changed from then until now.

in quick glance over entire thread we still identify with the frustration at not knowing things that have been agreed to by others with the team of professionals. not that there is any sense of ganging up but more of the wish *I* were in on what was transpiring between other parts of this brain and the pro. team.

last two months have included a rough med trial which exacerbated all other stuff going on. there is still pain about this and acceptance which comes in waves but the quality of the despair and self-hatred/hatred of selves has changed dramatically since then.

since that time we've: attended intensive therapeutic retreats, gone on our first vacation in years and had a blast, had family come to visit which brings its own grabbag of stressors but managed better than previous visits, plugged back into a community that strengthens our support network, journaled and created new pieces which had been very shut off from most of us so for art to re-emerge as a flowing process instead of a forced one has been very helpful in remaining positive about moving forward.

haven't eaten yet today which was one trouble of med. so thank goodness we get to go back down to a more tolerable level....we hope! anyway the lack of eating on a schedule hinders our ability to think clearly and string more than two or three words together in a coherent manner.

definitely good stuff to reread and reflect upon. glad we're in a space to be able to do so at this time.

the lack of dread about life is a very welcome change over the past several months. it has been hard work with help from many places. wonder what we'll be posting next August?!