I don't have control anymore.....

This is my first time posting on here...I joined so long ago and got scared away. I thought I could beat this. I can't. I can't stop binging and purging. It scares me to see that I will always struggle with this....I'm still in denial I think. I guess on the positive side it's nice to see i'm not alone. I'm doing so good in life...probably the best I ever have. But I just can't kick this....and I really hate a part of myself for it. And the more I hate myself, the more I binge and purge. It just seems so crazy. I'm in college and I want to be a psychiatric nurse....can I do this if I'm this way?

Sister, you can do anything you set your mind to do. You would probably benefit from going into some T, and posting here on PC to get your feelings out there and lean on the support of those going through it. I've had the purging for over 20 years, it seems to never completely go away and raises its ugly head when there is mega stress in my life, first you need to get some help to support you so that you are not all alone in this. Do you have parents or a BF that you can share this with? I hope so.