[alliwantislove]

i just need to vent and i have never had anyone to talk to about my issues.

i have always been overweight. i was about 15 i am now 22. am 5'8'' so i dnt look that fat. i lost a lot of it thru bulemia. i would bing on food and then throw up right after i did it for about 2 years. i would also starve myself my lowest weight was because of bulemia. now that i am lower weight i still want to lose more. i dnt feel satisfied with my weight i try to work out everyday. i want to eat healthier but i always go for the junk food and the calorie high and the carbs. after i eat them i feel so shity and when i dont work out i feel so anxious.

i would love to go to a gym and eat healthier but i always give in to the unhealthy things. i believe i stopped the bulemia due to taking birth control pills other wise i would still do it. i still get the urge but fight it.

i kno am pretty i kno i can b pretty but i feel i can be better than what i am now.

i want to go a day without having to worry about what i ate today and how much calories i took in and not having to worry about if i gained weight.

just wanted to share thanks for listening

[Feiticeira]

I feel your pain.

I use to starve myself and did horrible things to my body. I have to say even when I hit my lowest weight, where my mother would cry and try to feed me cake and what not, I still thought I was fat. I look at pictures of myself then and I think about how crazy that was.

It's the media that gives us impossible ideals that no women can live up to! Even the women we see in magazines don't look like that. I believe Cindy Crawford said, "I wish I looked like Cindy Crawford".

The best thing you can do is to keep active and get regular exercise. Even if you don't feel your at your thinnest you'll have more confidence in your looks than if you just diet.

Also check out Killing us Softly. You're definitely not alone in your struggle with body image.

[alliwantislove]

no body knows about the bulemia or the starving ive always hide it. i feel a lot better after i work out but i kno if i would watch what i eat more then i would lose the weight. my problem area is my lower stomach my hips i wanna tone them more but like i said what i eat doesnt help. and somtimes i feel like whats the point of working out if i eat junk food the next day or stuff my face.

i know am holding myself back but why does food have to taste so good! lol

[Feiticeira]

There are lot of negative long term effects from bulimia and starvation. Starving yourself is just completely counter productive the only thing you really accomplish is putting your body into starvation mode which just slows down your metabolism. Also when you throw up, you've already absorbed a lot of the food you've already eaten, so it's just damaging more than anything else.

If you feel like your getting hungry when you shouldn't be try drinking a glass of water, sometimes people mistake hunger pains for thirst, also your metabolism will slow down when your dehydrated. It's crazy the difference drinking a lot of water can do.

I think it's more important to accept yourself for who you are and to like yourself. You may not feel you're perfect but I'm sure your beautiful as you are.

It's feels impossible to not constantly stress about weight, I feel like throwing away my scale lol. It does suck that whats horrible for your body tastes so good!

But just because you mess up by over eating you should still get some exercise, it'll make a difference in your body image even if your not losing weight. And to be honest how you feel about yourself trumps your actual weight.