i can listen. No shame or guilt.. I'm a bulimic too.

Just wanted you all to know that im a listening ear. I dont want to be an enabler, but I can listen to your woes about having an ed. I also have one. I've been through the stages where it wasnt compulsive but I still did it. Now I am at a stage where it is compulsive.. I can't seem to miss a day. Its wearing on my health.

Of course I recommend everyone to not binge and purge, but I also know what it feels like to live in isolation with a secret. I wanted a place where I could talk about it with no shame, no guilt, just acceptance. I can also understand feeling frustrated with people.

I've probably had bulimia for years and years, but never had anyone to talk about it with. Maybe if i did, I wouldn't feel the shame the ties me into this cycle. These are just my thoughts.. Everyone!!!! Everyone!! whether angry, sad, frustrated, addicted, or even trying to become addicted... You are accepted here.

Thank-you esthervirtue

You don't know what it means to me to have you write that.

Oftentimes when I come here and write about my struggles with throwing up, I'm looking for some encouragement to stop...you know, things like "You can do it Green, I know you can resist the urge" or "It's OK that you gave in once Green, as long as you try your very best to stop" or "We know how much of a struggle it is for you Green, we understand."

But, instead, I find that people get angry with me and I'm not sure why.

Hi Green

People are not angry with you - they are worried about you and doing their best to convince you to stop now before you're addicted to binging and throwing up. At this time, you can stop, nip it in the bud. As Esthersvirtue explained, it progresses in stages until it ends in addiction. Then every day would be taken up with it. Any addiction takes precedence over everything else.

I have suggested before that you take your mother into your confidence and explain that any fattening foods she buys are only aggravating your condition and tempting you beyond all endurance. Surely she would stop buying all this junk? It would tempt a saint, having all those foods available.

Don't let it get you down. Keep busy and interested in doing other things. Don't spend your young life ruminating about food the whole time. It can steal a lot of years out of your life. I've seen it so often in my job as a nutritionist/dietician. It can damage your oesophagus irreparably. You would deeply regret that. You would also lose teeth from the acid damaging the enamel. The list goes on.

Just listen, take it in. Ask your mom not to buy junk. And relax.

I'm rooting for you, Green,
best wishes FG