Laxatives

Disclaimer: triggering. (isn't everything triggering these days?!)

I have run out of colace and laxatives and i feel out of control. I feel so disgusted with myself and I cant stand it!!! I desperately want to throw up but I already took Lunesta and it tastes unbearable on the way back out. I cant stand how fat I am.

Everyone says I look good but I would rather be a smaller size again.
and to top it off I am way too old for this bs.
I just wanna be thin so I can get back in the dating world, maybe get married before I die??

Hey,

i know whatever i said wont make sense for you right now, because everytime peoploe asking me to eat or give a comment about me not eating its make me angry
but this is not healthy and who you are nothing to do with the size of your body

oh honey.... laxatives I have found do not work. I used to abuse the crap out of them. Its not healthy either. what about exercising? people tell me my methods of uneating are unhealthy but sometimes its hard to get out of it you know? I'm always here if you need to talk.

I know how you feel!!! I use laxatives a lot. People always will say something good or bad. I agree with puffyprue I hate when somebody tells me that I eat too little, or I'm too thin. Try to excersise that will help you to cope all your emotions and relax a little bit.

I abused laxitives the first time I was dealing with anorexia. Then the medication I'm on is constipating in the first place.....so there was an excuse to use them for awhile, but I found that I tended to abuse them & the problem with abuse is also dehydration. Look up all the medical problems that can come from abuse of laxitives including the inability after awhile to for your body to function without them.

Definitely not a wise thing to abuse in the whole scheme of things & neither is throwing up. Over exercising isn't wise either.....everything in moderation & you will not only look healthy, but you will be healthy....much better than being so thin one looks like a walking skeleton.

I can guarantee you that having a nice personality will get you a lot farther in the dating world than being a small size. It's more important to catch a nice guy who is real than someone who is so superficial that all they are looking for is a thin person. In reality, a guy doesn't like the looks of a girl that looks like a walking dead person. They want someone who won't pass out every time they try to do something fun because they haven't eaten in days or is in the hospital every time they turn around needing IV nutrition. In the dating scene, a person with anorexia is more of a liability....someone they will have to be caring for the rest of their life if they live that long. If they are really interested in a good catch & getting married, they will be looking for someone to enjoy the rest of their life together with, not just until the other person dies of anorexia.

Size 1 may look good with cloths covering the body.....but after that????? bones sticking out all over the place, looking like a walking skeleton isn't exactly what appeals to most guys. It's more the look of someone dying of cancer than a nice healthy girl they would be interested in marrying. (just some food for thought..no pun intended)

I never found the laxatives to be a helpful weight loss tool, except for psychological reasons. when I was 19/20 I abused them and messed up my system. I spent the next fifteen years with constipation and a colon that no longer worked. eventually I had to have my colon removed which was the. worst. surgery. I felt near death and wanted to die.

please find better ways to get to your ideal size or better yet, do you have a therapist? I think your thinking is very pro-ana. are you actually looking to get better? if so, this is the place to do it! if not, I think you're on the wrong site... I hope you're looking to get better--you're worth more than your size!

Well said!!!