How can I not get sick from diets, when I don't know them all

I am still struggling with keep my weight down to more normal. what can I do. I gave up Pizza, only eat spagetti once a month, make my family eat meals that have vegetables in them too much, I won't take them to McDee or Burger King for fries, and shakes like we used to do, not because it costs more but because I keep saying Taco Bell is healthier. I want to be more bending. I too want to eat a greasy sandwich, a slice of pizza, but the urge to purge, well, I can't control it enough, so I am a stick in the mud. Do people still have picnics with families in the park? Are there any happy thougts left for me to think concerning meal time with friends? I really wanted to stop using laxitives, but seldom do I get the chance to eat the way I know "my" body needs for "me" to stay true to the promises; but what promises did I really make to begin with about eating food? I want to get clearer ideas for myself about the eating disorder, or for that matter the eating order. Can it be what some call balanced, healthy, yet restricting and not be sickening? I worry that there is no diet that dosen't make me or my family sick.

Many places serve a fairly healthy variety of foods these days.... so go ENJOY and pick the best food possible off the menu.... YOU can do IT!!.


LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

What a burdon for us EDs have. To constantly worry. I work with young children and sometimes watch how they eat. I try to think back when I didn't care what i ate or how many calories there was in my apple juice, or how many miles i have to run to burn off the yogurt i just ate. It was a long time ago but i remember. I ate when i was hungery. I remember going to my Nona's house with my family. She would feed us from the moment we got there to the moment we left. My brothers and I would lie around lazy after our tummies got too full. And not once did I think "will I gain weight?". I try to remember when I started denying myself certain foods. I'm sure it was some time in highschool. I was always athletic and never "fat" , i was solid but not skinny, skinny. But why be skinny? Be healthy. Eat what you want, over eat if you desire. But don't punish yourself for it. I wish i wasn't such a hypacrit but it's good advice that i've gotten non the less. Keep on trying.

I will try it. I have a list of good stuff and guess what, I started running on the outdoor trail last week. I am going to eat and go jogging one time a day and see if that dosen't get me feeling better. I am going to try to feel good. I can do it. I have the money to purchase food I do like, so why not give it a try. I am going to buy fresh pineapple, some gratefuits, some cornflakes, and one percent milk. Some chocolate syrup for the milk. I am going to get really tasty dressing for the salads. I am going to get some good lunchmeat and make some seafood salad. I can give myself a break. I know it won't last. I lost my appetite before many times. I will still keep it up though. I can fast heree and there, yet still try to eat and be joyful, alittle bit more than I have. I can try again. I will keep trying again. I will keep trying everytime I fall with my eating plans, I will keep trying again. I get disgusted, But I will keep trying one more time, keep trying once more. Once more, I will give it another try. Oh yea I like orange juice, so I will drink that, maybe each day.