[Jenn1fer82]

When I was at my worst I would binge and purge every single meal I ate every day of the week. That was almost 10 years ago and I'm 24 now.

Now when I do find myself bingeing and purging again it is when I'm going through a very stressful time. When I was younger my purpose was to lose weight but I realize it now that it was always my way of handling my stress. I'm no longer as compulsive as before but it is so frustrating with I find myself getting caught up with the same state of mind as before.

I'm just so damn hard on myself. When I'm on a healthy diet and on a reasonable workout routine I'm feeling great but once I eat that extra slice of pizza or skipping a working out I feel like such a disappointment. Before I know it I'm going down hill again.

Sometimes I think its just better not to set myself on a diet and workout routine because I could slip right back into bulimia before I could even catch my breath. I lack such self-control.

[littleone]

I am only 14, but I know exactly what you are going through. I am not allowed to go on any diets anymore, because the last time I did I ended up being diagnosed with bulimia and anorexia. I find now that NOT being on a diet and a workout routine, really does help. I'm not really good at giving advice. I dont know if what I have just told you will help at all, but I did my best. and if you would like to talk more about this you can send me a private message or just reply to this. well I dont have school tomorrow, so if you happen to be on, if you want to you can send me a message. I will be logged onto this site all day. I live in Oregon and right now it is 11:15 PM. I will probably be up at about 8:00AM or 9:00AM my time. I lack self-control too. I know how you feel. You just got to hang in there, and keep talking to people that you can trust in. And NEVER give up. GOOD LUCK.
Brittany

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perhaps the problem isnt lack of self-control.

Maybe its that you are using the binging and purging as a coping mechanism to deal with stress and feeligns. If you are in therapy maybe you can ask your T to help you idnetify better coping mechanisms. You deserve some help . Be gentle with yourself.