[lboogs]

Ok...so now that I have admitted to doctors that I need help, my brain has gotten into thinking that I need to get worse before I go in for help or else they will think I am really fine...hmmmm

That sounds familiar to me - like in that I thought that way too... being worse is not what you need to be.

Getting help is what you need...at least that is what I found out from my own personal experience.

So please, please just go for help now!!!!

Thinking good thoughts for you.......Lu

[biiv]

can totally relate. pdoc wants me to keep a food diary and show it to T weekly and now im scared they ll look at it and think im faking for attention or something if its not bad enough. am feeling very ridiculous too. i dont know where i get these ideas from but its comforting at least to know theres someone else out there feeling the same thing! im guessing being worse would be a bad idea for both of us though. maybe not something we want to aim for!?

[lboogs]

Thank you for both the replies... I definitely agree that it will do no good to get worse before getting better and I am trying to tell myself that getting help is just another step on the way to recovery and that it was me who got myself into this in the first place. I really do want to get better and I wish it was just a snap of the fingers and I dont understand where this irrational thinking of having to prove something now is coming in...but it's not what I am going to do. We do need to stay positive and biiv we definitely can't focus on these thoughts...it's so comforting to speak with people though who are thinking the same things

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hope you feel better at this time. The therapist and Dr are there to help you before you get into a crisis, they will believe you and help you before you get worse that is what they are trained for, and what they learn in school. you just need to be honest and they will get you the help that you need, you do not need to wait to get help that would and could be a big mistake on your part. Part of recovering is responsibility for yourself when you can get the help, before a crisis. Take care i am sure you ar worrying for nothing and you will do well seeing the Dr and therapist, that can understand your problems. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia

[veritymoon]

that is just what i did. i did not think i was unwell enough so thought i had to be on deaths door to justify help.
remember what people see on the outside gives no clue to what is going on inside your body or the way you are feeling.