[themusikhurts]

four months or so...thats all i am good for. i can quit for a while, but eventually i start up again. sure, once i went like eleven months, but since then, like 2 years ago, i go through what i call phases. where i am anorexic for a while then when that becomes unbareable, i just start binging, then it turns to bulimia for a few months or weeks. last week i lost 7 pounds, since yesterday, ive lost 3. i tried to eat today while at work and two minutes later, i was in the bathroom. i can usually control myself, but couldnt today. it was embarrassing, i had to lie and say i thought i ate something bad then they wanted to send me home then,,, i just dont like to lie. thats why i usually am ok with controlling myself, but i dont know what to do this time. i cant stop throwing up. i ate friggin two potstickers tonight. and got sick. wtf? cause, i dont know.

[littleone]

I know how you feel. I used to be like that. But then I was sent to treatment. they said that it is up to you to do what is right. even if you arent hungry, you have to talk positive to yourself. And if you feel like you are gonna throw up, sit down and try to calm yourself down. right now I am in high school. And it is really hard to control myself at school. but I know that there are always people in the bathrooms, so I cant just go in there and throw up. because if I do, I will be made fun of.
Anyway, I am not to good at giving advice, so here is my best. if you want to, you can send me a private message.
Good Luck!