[dcs_no1_fan]

I cant do this any more I went to the doctor's on the 13th Dec & he gave me depression tablets & told me he would send me to see a pshycologist about my ED I have been doing really well with eating over the last couple of weeks even though I still haven't gained any weight I have been eating loads compared to what I was eating & not feeling to bad about eating but on boxing day night I hit rock bottom again & its getting bad again I just not want to eat any more I feel sooooooooo fat & I hate myself so much again I cant talk to my husband about how I am feeling as he cant understand why I feel the way I do the only person that I have to talk about it is a friend from school but I will not see her till the kids go back to school next week I know that I cant wait that long as I will slip back in to not eating again & I know that I cant do that.

[Milanist]

Help your husband to understand, he is the best perosn who can help you! plus its an extra burden, that to hide it from him.
Life is full of ups and downs, you have bad days and good ones, just look forward to the good ones! Dont give up the fight, a life is worth fighting for!

[biiv]

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wish i could say something that would help. i am thinking of you.
biiv

[Soidhonia]

Hello Biiv. I hope tings are better for you at this time., Try to calm down and just eat normally, since the holidays are almost over. There is a diet on the internet under the American Diabetes Association site for meal planning for Diabetics, and Hypoglycemics. The Hypoglycemia diet lets you eat less, more often, and helps people with eatoing disorders, retrain their way of thinking about food, since the food intake is less, and you eat more often, so that you will still meet nutritional requirements without gaining weight.
Take care I hope the best for you and your therapy in the future. Sincerely soidhonia

[Junerain]

for dcs no1 fan....

you wrote about how for a while there you were doing really well, eating loads, and not feeling bad about what you were eating..focus on that positive, try to forsee what was working then, then re-create what was working..you deserve PRAISE for doing so much better for so long..if you really dont feel comfortable talking to your husband and your friend isnt available right away think of us here at psychcentral as friends to confide in.....write us again & let us know how you are....what normally helps you? what relaxes you? we care.......

[dcs_no1_fan]

Thanks for your replys all of you

I still dont feel any better but I know that I have to eat even if I really dont want to as I can not let my children not see me eat as I dont want them thinking what I am doing is right I want them to grow up big & strong.

Were sitting eating lunch at the moment its not much I am having a roll but its something & that I know is better than nothing.

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hope things are going better for you today, I am glad to hear that you are at least trying to eat and keep a mindset that your children need to have a healthy mother. Ihope your therapist can help you to eat more sensibly in the future so food does not have to be so threatening, and you can be healthy, and feel good again. I hope the best for you take care Sincerely Soidhonia

[dcs_no1_fan]

Thanks Soidhonia

I am eating better again now I know that my children need a healthy mother & I am trying so hard to be like that I havent started to see a T at the moment I am still waiting for my appointment to come through as I only went to get help a few days befor christmas.

[silver_queen]

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You will be able to eat, try telling yourself so, maybe that that will help and make things easier.

[dcs_no1_fan]

Thanks things are better at the moment i know I have to keep on going on the long road but i will get there soon