[dcs_no1_fan]

I think im falling in to the trap again I saw the doctor just before christmas to get help with my anorexia I was ment to see a T ect & put on depression tablets then in the new year we moved so that all got put on hold so with getting in to see my new doctor then plucking up the curage to tell him all about it again which was hard as I had to do it on my own this time then being sent to a T again I got on with my life & really well I was happy with being were I had wanted to be living for so long & everything else that was going on im my life I started putting on weight again & eating well & not caring what I was eating I was really happy & putting on weight but now & I really dont know why I am starting to hate the way I feel again I am not eating much again & my weight is going down & im glade about that I just wish it was lower still is this normal am I going to feel like this for the rest of my life as I was doing so well I stopped taking my depression tablets about a week ago could that be why I fell like this

Can anyone help me life doesnt feel like its worth living again

[Direction]

Probably a good time to talk to your T - stopping medication could be a part of what you are feeling...

[lil_bit]

Hello dc, i'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Perhaps it is because you've stopped taking your medication? Even though you felt better, perhaps you should take it for a bit longer yet?

"am I going to feel like this for the rest of my life" very few people ever FULLY recover from anorexia, and for most the thoughts a recurring so you will probably experience those feelings on and off through the years as you complete your recovery. When this happens though just remind yourself that it is something you can beat, remind yourself of how well you had been doing and use that as your inspiration to reach and exceed that point in the future.

(((dcs)))

[Raindrizzle]

I'm sorry but I am going to disagree with everyone whose suggesting to go back on your pills. My T tried to give me anti-depressants and such but I told her I didnt want them.

All a pill does is create a temporary escape for your struggles. Nothing else. In no other way could it possibly help, it obviously didn't cure you of your disorder, nor did it surpress any relapsing feelings. We are all stronger than these ED's, seriously, you just have to believe it yourself. Pill's can't help or cure you. It escapes your mind from what it doesnt want to think about. Meaning it's postponing it's thoughts for a later time which by then could increase to something more than it was before, then once you think that way, you pop another pill. Cycle starts all over again.

Nothing's changed. The only thing that can help to recover, is you. You alone can overcome it. It's not easy by any means. But it really can be done.

[dcs_no1_fan]

thanks I have not gone back on my pill but I still dont feel anybetter about myself im am just trying to get through every day now & hope that the next day will be a better one I have also changed what I eat everyday so fingers crossed for that working to I am also trying to tone up as well as I feel that a big part of how I feel is from where I have had my children

[silver_queen]

((((((((((((((( Cat ))))))))))))))))

I so understand you there. I go through those cycles too - just in my case I don't eat normally, I binge... for months at a time *sigh*

I don't know what you can do to help yourself though. But I wrote this so you'd know you're not alone...

[dcs_no1_fan]

Thanks I kno im not but it gets so hard at time

I dont know anyone else who feels like this IRL so it can get very hard my husband cant cope with how I feel so he just tells me to stop being silly ect as he loves me so much & he cant stop me feeling like I do.

I have got up to 121lb at the moment & I know that is good but I just hate it so much & all the old feelings are coming back about not eating takeing slimming tablets ect & I just wish that they would go away & leave me alone

[silver_queen]

How are things now, Cat?

[dcs_no1_fan]

Hi
Things are still the same I just cant stop feeling like this at the moment when ever I try talking to my husband he just changes the subject I feel so alone with this at the moment & because I feel like this all I have done for the last few days is eat so im getting fatter & fatter & I hate my self even more the summers coming & im to fat to put any short tops on & all my clothes are getting to small