[gettinbetter201]

...or like another user put it, "stuck on stupid". I have such a problem with binge eating - have for most of my life. And sometimes it just baffles the heck out of me. I know what to do. I know what works. I know what doesn't work. I recently managed to lose 16 lbs. by working a very healthy program that was actually fun for me. But over the past couple of months I've been fighting tooth and nail to keep working it.

I'm not sure if I'm supposed to refer to another site in my posts, but I'm sure someone will let me know if I've broken any rules. I found a web site called myfooddiary.com and I found it to be easy to follow, very educational, and actually a cool, fun way to change your lifestyle. It worked for me for several weeks. But there is something in me that whenever I get close to a certain weight says "OH HELL NO!" and I slip right back into the binge eating and can't stop the insanity no matter how hard I try. And that is so darn frustrating!!! I don't understand it and I feel so embarrassed, ashamed and alone sometimes because I don't know anyone personally, in my life who suffers from this crazy disease, or at least not to the extent that I do.

So... you'll see me hanging around. I look forward to getting to know some of you and joining your network here.

God Bless you all,
gb

[Perna]

Is there some way you can buy certain food and not other? Healthy stuff? Binge eating "carrots" won't do a lot of damage, LOL or grapes, I've eaten ALL the grapes in the world and that just convinces one that one doesn't want to do that again LOL.

Don't buy the "bad" stuff or only a certain amount? Go slow instead of all-or-nothing and it's easier? I like certain good foods, eat a banana and an apple a day, no matter what. Get into that kind of habits and it will be harder to binge because you'll already be full? I don't like discomfort.

[DePressMe]

Hi gb, I struggle with an ED too. I don't have a lot of answers, but at least know that I understand and that you are not alone. There are going to be times where we fall and let our eating behaviors get out of control, but the only thing we can do is get back up and keep trying. When I have had a bit of a relapse, it helps me to try to think of a new approach or a new set of foods to focus on. The novelty of a new diet seems to keep my interest and helps me stay motivated to eat healthy. But...I have not been doing so good the fast few weeks, so maybe my plan is not working as good as it could be....I truly do understand the embarrassment and shame. Those are 2 big emotions that help keep me trapped in my bad eating cycle.

I noticed you have a sobriety counter--I am in recovery too. Congrats on staying clean and sober! That is a great accomplishment!