Bulimia and me

After I did my most recent post; in the depression forum, I ended up eating. I was so angry; at myself and the way things are turning out. I wanted to feel better. So I purged. But there was blood. I don't expect anyone to reply to this; whats there to say. I am damaging myself. I am going to cancel my appointment; whats the point anyway? All of these court issues are coming up and I have to be there for them; so I will just continue to do things my way. I guess I am angry and upset; I have not had time to deal with all of this; something always comes up and its usually a court issue; this I have to take care of first. Oh, well.......... I guess things are meant to be the way they are.
E.

I think it's better for you to go to the appointment. I really think it's needed! Also about there being blood...that's happened to me before. It would happen almost every time. Yeah, it's damaging, and can sooner or later do LOTS of damage. I know it's hard to avoid these thoughts and behaviors of our when we're stressed so much. I think that I'm getting closer to purging again. Right now I'm thinking more about weight, but things could change. Okay, so you purged. Go the the appointment and tell your T that it happened. Tell you T how bad life feels. It would be hard to just wake up one day and stop purging and have healthy habits forever from that point on. It takes time. You slipped up. It happens. It's part of progress. Now, will you go to your appointment?