[little*rhino]

seriously.. i do. T says if i say i have no power over this, then i don't have power over it... but i am stressing over this every day now. i have had only one day out of almost two weeks where i didn't throw up. i eat some snacks during the day and do ok, then i try to eat a meal.. that's when trouble strikes. i've attempted to stay with just snacks, and some days that works, some days i just get really hungry.

i have decided that eating less is a lot better than the alternative for now... i need to not be putting my body through that every day. And i need to stop thinking about how i have failed every day.

i don't know how to set a goal around this... one that is attainable. i mean, throwing up is a black and white thing, you do or you don't. i'm not winning.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((( candika ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I just want to give you a million of these

I so, so, so know how you're feeling. It's so frustrating, and discouraging, and....well just BAD.

What helped me recently was completely changing how I eat. I've only eaten veggies, fruit, and beans since about mid-June. No grains, no sugar, no trigger foods (although almost anything can be a trigger food). It's so frustrating to not know how to eat. Ugh.

I've relapsed a couple of times, but for the most part, it's been better than usual. And I don't feel like I'm going to die, which is how I felt when I was restricting and/or binging and purging.

It's hard not to turn this way of eating into restricting. And it was REALLY REALLY hard to let myself feel full after having a bunch of veggies or a salad or whatever. But for the most part, it's better than it was before I changed how I was eating.

(((((((((((((((((((( candika ))))))))))))))))))))) Hang in there, sweetie.

[marcelodlanod]

..exactly... trigger food... meals... meals are the worst part of the day... and.. is worst feeling like your day is based on food time... Do we exist for that? ..just for that?,,, live one day at a time.. one meal at the thime... then, later.. youll get your reward.. try to do something like this!!! Get well !!

[little*rhino]

i eat a small meal and just keep hoping i can get through. i have made it through two days now... i ate one of those pre-packaged meals bc it was portioned and was an actual meal at least. So hard to keep it down... but i did. Now i worry excessively about re-gaining the weight i lost.. bc i really do need to lose more. i'm not back to my healthy weight yet even. i have just been losing far too rapidly and in terrible ways. Its suhc a tough choice.. i dont know when i am doing the right thing