Minor that needs help

I'm Alex, I'm sixteen, and I live in the US. If I explained everything that's happening you would end up reading an entire novel and I have a habit for rambling, so I'll keep it short.

I have been diagnosed with OCD and other anxiety disorders. However, the only reason I was diagnosed was because my parents thought it was weird that I hate being touched and thought I had something really wrong with me and even after I was diagnosed they continued making fun of my symptoms and such. Before hand, I suffered from severe GAD for two years or so and that entire time my parents accused me of faking it or being over dramatic, although I was unable to leave the house because I would have anxiety attacks that left me immobile. I lost so much weight people asked if I was anorexic and my parents still didn't do anything.

I went to the school counselor's last year for other reasons and they sent me to a school psychiatrist, and he recommended me to get checked out for Asperger's. While I was seeing him I was in what I think was probably a form of depression? I was so sad I was starting to have delusions and the school had to call my parents about me because so many teachers noticed and were concerned, and even then they wouldn't take me anywhere for help.

Right now I'm really concerned I have some type of mood disorder, because for years I've had my moods change a lot and within the past year they've gotten more and more intense until one week I'll be bouncing off the wall feeling great about myself and the next week I'll feel suicidal every minute of every day. I can't tell my parents because they'l only yell at me and make fun of me and scold me, and they won't actually help me. I'm starting to get really scared of myself because of how quickly my moods flip (i.e. this morning I woke up at 2 AM completely awake and energized, ready to jump out of bed and do stuff and stayed that way until the last hour or so, and now I don't even feel like I'm real and I want to go to do something really reckless and hurt myself).

I need to know if it's worth going back to my school counselor's again, because I'm scared to tell them about my parents and start something bad, but I'm also getting more and more scared of myself. I can't keep up with my own thoughts one day and the next all I can think about is dying and I really think I need help. I don't have any friends (I've always been an outcast), and have no family members that can help me. I'm sorry if this is unnecessary or something, but I don't know what to do at all and I'm getting more and more panicked every time my mood switches.

Yes go back to the counselor get the help u need. If u feel dangerous to urself go to the counselor go to ER something. If ur parents won't help u u need to find someone to help u. Going to get real help may snap ur parents out of it but it may not. Let them worry about themselves, u need to worry about urself. Take care of urself. We are here for u at PC but u need help and support that u can't get from the computer.

Please go to ur counselor go to the ER something anything to help urself.

I agree, go back to your school counselor and tell them you need more help. Regardless of what your parents say or think - you deserve to get the help you need. I am proud of you for recognizing that you need help and reaching out. The next step is to reach out irl and let someone know about your thoughts/feelings.

Hi Alex: If you haven't already done so... definitely. Go back to your school counselor or the psychiatrist you saw, or talk with a trusted teacher, or someone. You can't work through all of this on your own. And chances are it's not going to go away by itself. In fact, worrying about what's happening with you just adds fuel to the fire, as they say.

I would like to add, though, based on what you wrote, I don't know that you need to talk so much about your parents. What you need to talk about is yourself. Again, from what you wrote, it doesn't sound as though your parents are harming you directly. They're being insensitive & unhelpful, maybe even neglectful. But, rather than focus on that, what I would suggest, at least initially is: focus on what's going on with YOU. This is what's important right now. Please... in one way or another... get some help...

P.S. You have friends here on PC. Keep posting...

You sound pretty bright, you write very well and you're in-touch with your emotions. Those things are pretty rare for an adolescent who is having difficulty. Get a handle on it asap, see a psychiatrist. Don't see a school counselor unless they are educated very well. I know school counselors were useless when I went to school in 70's/80's. I started having difficulty at 14 and took decades to try a find out what was going on. There are many types of disorders that can pop up during adolescent from mood disorders to dissociative, anxiety, etc. and they are usually not easy to diagnose so see a professional. Get your parents or an adult to recommend someone who has a good reputation, someone affiliated with a good hospital, etc. Just don't go to any Dr. you find in the yellow pages.

dude, you need a vaction, go to a psyc ward for a break, they might seem scary but go to a good one cuz it aint no good to be around sick people when your already sick, look for one thats at least prestiges, if u can afford it.

dude ur just 16, these are your adolescene, take it from me, its no easy phase for a lot of us, including me. i barely expierenced anything in my adolecence. in fact the rebellious fraction of this sensitive and yet instense phase of human life came to me in my 20's. i was smoking weed and off my meds doing crazy ****. you need a break from life dude. go somehwere far away if u have to.

talk to counselors, psychiatrists, therapists. try CBT, cognitive behaviorl therapy. i had a good one for that type of therapy, she was like my maternal figure for a while.

its ****ed up how ur parents dont give a **** man, my mom only wanted me to be safe cuz my bro died and im the 2nd son.

if **** dont lighten up, you might go insane. i think the moments of euphoria u explained are actually what they call mania. mood shifts that peak and plateue. super happy one hour, and left out to dry and be spent the next.

im a expert of this stage in life, cuz im still livin it! im 27 by the way. youth is forever. you dont have to live like this, theres light in the dark, just gotta reach it dude.

i love you man, take care for me, dont do nuttin rash and try not to overhaul or do things that stress you.

keep a journal, write in it like crazy if u have to. do things, make moves and take it easy!