What is wrong with me?

Could you contact a domestic abuse hotline?

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Too bad the grandma option didn't work out. A group home is kind of like roommates in that you share space with others, it's just a different dynamic. Maybe a room to let / rooming house rental type of situation is an affordable option?

Tell your problems to someone, get help. Therapy? tell the police? Move with another family member. Make him learn he isn't right and he can't treat you like that. He's obviously the mental one and you need to tell someone who can help you. Good luck

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My dad just made a rule that I'm not allowed to talk. He and my sister are allowed to say whatever they want to me and I'm not allowed to talk to defend myself. I'm very scared and my sister already said I'm a failure but I'm not allowed to talk. I can't get help no one would ever understand.

My dad just literally said to me "I need a way to control you so go to your room." I'm 22 and I don't know if this is wrong but I think it is. So here I am in my room typing on this computer.

your dad is abusive. you should try living in a shelter until the people who are in charge can set you up with a more permanent place to live and get some type of disability pmts to help you pay.good luck

Count down to leaving! 11 days...

How are things? Thinking of you *hugs*

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I'm about to leave and tell everyone I know that my dad is abusive and then everyone will know. I'm in pretty bad shape. Looking forward to the plane ride. Don't know what to feel or think.

7 days!!!

Some of my concerns:
1. I'll forget about my experience and specific incidences with my dad I won't be able to recall or I'll feel too upset to talk about it.
2. I'll finally feel aggression towards my dad and not know how to express it.
3. I'll not have someone to talk to when I need someone, maybe late at night or something.
4. i will be bored and I'll go crazy thinking too much.
5. And the worst of all I will have to go home or even want to. I know I said want to😓

I'm free and on my own but I'm sooo upset and I don't know why. I want to punish myself so badly and I feel like I don't deserve to live, but I'm not going to kill myself. I'm just so upset and I feel so much hatred for myself and my mom tells me I have to make myself not upset but I can't. And I feel so much shame when I talk to my mom because I know she's thinking how ridiculous I am when I tell her I want to hurt myself. She says that's my choice of I hurt myself. And she says if I call her upset again she will bring me home back to the abuse.

Hello,

I grew up with my father constantly putting me down, shaming me and telling me what a stupid loser I was, and that he wished that he could swap me for his friends' sons who were so smart and cool. So many times I wondered if I was adopted, because I new it wasn't normal for a father to hate his own son so much. I lived with that constant abuse crushing me down every day for decades, until I finally was blessed with the opportunity to leave.

I know how you feel. It will be difficult the first few months, but it will pass. You'll enjoy your freedom and you will appreciate being free from your abuser.

Stay strong. You will be fine.

I hope you will get some counseling. xo

yes, definately get some counseling. you can vent face to face with a t. you may even get to see a doc too. some of the meds work great, i'm on several, and praise the people who helped me get better. good luck