I am a god?

(I never know where to post these since I'm not diagnosed with anything so I don't want to butt me way into others space)

This will probably be among my weirder beliefs? But sometimes I feel like I'm a god? Not God with the capital G but just a god? It's not an all the time belief or something that I feel constantly. Also separate question can you further you own delusions? Cause I fear I do that sometimes and that I'm accidentally doing it rn...
But back to the god thing, I fear that since I know life is a lie I may actually be a special being that just doesn't have any powers and maybe that's why I'm being watch and why I fear I have to be so careful and other times it's kinda mean I'm just better then everyone and they should give me praise and attention cause who wouldn't want to give a good attention? Of course in the latter it can lead to any episode where I feel like **** and have super low self-esteem. I know it's illogical but it still feel very real, so please be kind with your advice

The kindest thing I can say is that I urge you to see your doctor.

Please be evaluated by a psychiatrist. Sending big hugs.

Yes, you need a doc, not to be mean but this is not right.

Yes, please see a psychiatrist. This is abnormal thinking. (((hugs)))

There are definitely times when I ponder the thought of my being "special" and/or somehow better than at least some other people appear to at least *think* I might actually be, but no, we are not gods.

Yes, I believe so, and the antidote for that is to seek a truer perception of ourselves in relation to others.

Who or what is the source or author of that alleged lie and what proof do you have that your belief might be true? The fact that we do not understand something does not make the thing we do not understand a lie.

It's not that I ponder if I am special or a god it's during these times that I know I am, but these thoughts happen usually during the worst of it so much so if you asked me if I was a god I would say yes. I dont know, I've just been thinking about all of my symptoms and everything is just connecting, everything I've noticed is coming together I and makes sense and I'm scared. When I say life is a lie I mean that none of it is real we are in a simulation that's why it's a lie I don't have any proof but none of it feels real. Honestly I just think I'm just in a downward spiral cause of how much sense this makes even if I know it shouldn't make sense I wonder if this is what a break feels like.

I agree with the rest of the folks. This life is not a simulation. It's reality. I think you have edged away from reality. Please talk to your doc about what you are thinking. Okay?

There are certain spiritual belief systems where we are all part of God and all one. That nothing is "real". Hoewever these beliefs usually bring about peace and comfort.

However it doesn't sound to me like you are at peace at them moment. Also concerning is that you expect to be praised for you Godness. This implies that you are God and they are not and that you are better than them.

I agree with the others that you be evaluated by a doctor.

What is reality? I dare someone to define it.
We may not be gods but our minds are powerful and there is so much we do not know about our own potentials.
Not dead yet, your thoughts are tied closely to your mental health, and it may help to have yours analyzed, but never accept "reality" because that's the way someone says it is, it must be acceptable to you. A therapist can help you make sense of what is in your head.

The thoughts and feelings you describe are disturbing as it can be part of severe mental distress leading to psychosis. We can't diagnose here and I don't want to frighten you but you do need to see a doctor to get an evaluation.

Kindly saying, I think this is a personality disorder.