[annoyedgrunt84]

So I just quit my job about a month ago. A friend got me a day job yesterday and said I could come in today again if I wanted, I lied to him about going on a trip with my family today. So I’m pretty much a terrible person I’m a lazy liar. I quit my job and then turned one down and don’t really want to look for a new one. I’m a terrible employee I don’t take care of things I need to take care of. I hate my bosses usually. My old boss just texted me about needing to come in and finish cleaning out my room. And I had thoughts of just wanting to punch him in the face so I’m probably a sociopath or something like that. Why am I so terrible?

[annoyedgrunt84]

I guess in mY defense, if you could even call it a defense, the job started at 6:30 a.m. I am a sometimes pretty severe insomniac. I didn’t sleep at all the night before worrying about what the day would be like, and I felt I needed to be able to catch up on sleep the next day. I get really run down and tired sometimes because of being unable to sleep at all or because I finally fall asleep about 3 in the morning oftentimes. When the alarm goes off about 6 that makes for a very short night. The next day I often have pounding headaches and feel foggy headed, barely able to function. To top that off many of my mental health problems really started about 6 years ago when I barely slept at all for three weeks. I then had a psychotic break and wound up in a psych ward for 4 days. When I don’t sleep for several nights I always start thinking about that, worrying that it could happen again.

[healingme4me]

I wouldn't consider that laziness. I would consider that, self aware. Doesn't sound like the hours are a good fit. And that's ok. Early mornings are not for everyone, I mean that with sincerity and lacking any ounce of judgement.
I would not have ever considered my 7am start time a couple of years ago. I had built up a tolerance because around 3 years ago a parent liason figure in my kids school district mentioned waking up at 530 to have time for herself to get her and her kids going at a smooth pace for their school days which are at 730. So when this internal job opportunity came up, it was no longer about whether I could function, but could I shift my kids a tad. My boss mentioned 430 to have her own time getting started with her own day. I tried that out and I'm not going to kid you, sometimes I feel like I'm on heartbreak hill running a matathon, but the point is...it's about finding a fit with hours as much as anything.

[ShadowGX]

I've felt the same way a lot until I got this job which I actually enjoy. I hate mornings, so I work the night shift, which also means good hours because most people prefer the day shifts. Me thinks you need to try to find a job with night hours if waking up early is a problem for you, but more importantly it needs to be a job you care about because it sounds like thus far all of your jobs have been the opposite.