Shocked,and dont understand

So my boyfriend had told me about a few situations that had happend a while back ago. I am still in shock. Well I guess I had fallen asleep but woke up with a blank star on my face talking to myself and I would do it for hours and I would he trying to find a way toharm him. He said I spoke in a mono tone no emotions what so ever. But I don't remember any of it at all it wasn't me I was doing some research and the closest I got was the dis order (DID) verry similar to alter ego but it would be due to my child hood abuse I need answers please

I'm sorry you are struggling with this. Yes, what you describe does sound sort-of like dissociative disorder. But I'm not a mental health professional. And we here on PC can't diagnose you. For this, you'll need to see a mental health professional (assuming you're not already doing so.)

There is a forum, here on PC, dedicated to dissociative disorders. You might want to consider posting your experiences there. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/dissociative-disorders/

And then here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, that discuss dissociative disorders. Perhaps reading them will provide you with some useful information:

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/d...n-depth/?all=1

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/relat...-common-signs/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/careg...onnected-self/

I wish you well...

I take it then that you regularly talk in your sleep? Does this go so far as to physically be active in your sleep? i am no professional but I think talking in your sleep is normal - perhaps what you are experiencing and saying is a sign of anxiety. I am interested to see what other's have to say.

Have you seen your doctor about having a sleep study?

Here where I am, waking up with a blank stare and talking to one self is not called DID. here its called "sleep walking" Sleep Talking" the technical/ medical word for it is "somniloquy" it happens for many reasons but the most common is being over tired and stress, worry or medications. it can happen with eyes closed and laying down or it can happen where someone appears to be having a conversation with someone (husband, wife or who ever happens to be around.)

with me this sometimes happens because of my medications. I had to stop taking lunesta and ambien because they cause me to sleep talk with my wife and children and not remember the next day doing so.

just a bit of info about DID... DID does not cause a person to wake up and talk to their self one day out of the blue causing worry. its a dissociative disorder that begins in very early childhood. since this is something that just suddenly happened not a whole life time of it (in which case Im ....... guessing......... it wouldnt be so bothersome because it would seem normal to you if you had grown up with it since very early childhood like this)

to find out what this actually is in you, you will need to contact your own treatment providers who will be able to diagnose and get you treated for what ever this is in you.

Yes I am actively up in my sleep for hours walking around trying to find him talking to myself saying that I'm going to hurt him be for he can hurt me he has taken knifes from me and he said that I had found his gun and tryes to pull the back but i was too weak and he said that I was saying that I'm glad i found it I have been looking for it for a long time that's why I was okay with him leaving to go some where and I was walking around the room looking for more bullets mad wondering who only keeps one bullet that I am going to need more than one for him... He was able to get the gun from me.... You see the crazy thing is is that I never even knew he had a gun .... This happend for three months straight. I am on meds for other diagnostics and i do go to therapy once a week so as soon as I go in i will talk to my therapist about it

Oh dear, yes you must talk to your therapist about this.

I go on Monday I just have a lot of anxiety and confusion going on because i dont know how i could reserch it if 1 not sure what its called so i cant reserch it to undeerstand it so i can cope. and 2 i wont be able to explain my exsperiances with it if i never even knew i did it lol i dont know and the info i will be giving my theripist isnt even from me its what my boyfriend said i was doing ..... we wouldnt lieto me about this though so for everyones saftey including my own i have to take his word for it and get help

How about setting up a video to record it? Or next time when you sleep and it happens again, tell your boyfriend to record it for you. It may be easier to tell the therapist that way.

Note: if you feel uncomfrotable watching the video, just let your boyfreind and therapist do their job. You have to watch it.