Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

So unfair that if you don't fit in with the majority, you wind up being left behind, forgotten about, laughed at, talked about, or you miss out on goodies or benefits that are the rewards of following the crowd. Even worse if the old tactic of peer pressure doesn't work on you. Then you are considered to be a bona fide freak.

That one person doesn't understand that I don't need him messaging me everyday and when I'm offline. I know I'm mean but the rest of my friends don't do it. I need my personal space.

That sounds exactly like me and my dad. He is trying to "build a relationship" after never being there for me when I was growing up. Now he texts me all the time. He texts me over, and over, and over again if I don't respond. And he knows, because I have TOLD HIM REPEATEDLY, that I do not get cell phone service in my office! So when I get off at 4:30, I go outside and my cell phone is flooded with the same text! It gets irritating having to tell him to please, just send it once. I don't want to be mean either, but seriously it gets on my nerves. Another thing, if myself or mom is sick and he hears about it or we make the mistake of telling him, he freaks out and tells us to go to the ER. He will not stop calling or texting until I have to tell him to please stop texting and calling, I DO NOT need to go to the ER. I realize he goes there at the drop of a hat, but I don't need to do that. And he tries to give me advice on stuff that he knows nothing about. I just nod my head and thank him, but it irks me. I'm trying to not be angry at him, but after having a deadbeat dad while I was growing up and well into my late twenties, I have a hard time trusting him and I certainly don't feel close to him. He promises, oh I'll take you out and we'll get dinner, but he NEVER keeps his promises. EVER. He said he'd bring me Taco Bell to my office not long ago but I don't trust him, and I'm glad I didn't and I brought my own lunch, because a half hour before my lunch he called and told me he couldn't come. Gee what a surprise. He tells me he'll do something and I'm like I'll hold my breath. He tries to act like nothing happened all those years, and tries to fit in like he has a clue about anything. I try to have a conversation with him and he doesn't even listen to what I'm saying. I'll say something and he'll just look at me and laugh like I said something funny. When I was in college, I don't know how many times I told him I was in geology, but he always asked me how I like BIOLOGY. For Pete's ******* sake, I'm not in biology! Pay attention! He makes stupid jokes that have nothing to do with anything, and I'll try to have an intelligent conversation with him about serious stuff and he'll come back with retarded comments like, well what about Lulu? Or, what about Fred? Or, only on Tuesdays, right? He's an idiot! He tries to hug me and give me a kiss and I have told him before I don't like to be touched due to things that happened in my past, and he still does it! I always have to lean away and wriggle free, I really really hate being touched like that, it makes me super uncomfortable. He doesn't get it. He'll ask me, you're my baby girl, right? And I have to fight back the urge to barf. I am not your baby girl nor will I ever be your baby girl, especially if you keep acting like an idiot! Yet he's always there for his granddaughter, my niece, and has a shirt that says she's his world. Thanks, I'm glad to know I'm not a part of that. I guess she's the little girl he never had, because he never made any gesture to try to raise me! I try to suppress my anger, but sometimes it comes boiling over the edge of the pot. Like right now.

I love the way my dog can stick his whole back foot in his mouth and suck it.

that's very interesting. Tell your dog i said hello.

there could be a million reasons why someone is not responding to my posts, but I'm just going to name a few.
1) maybe they're not available
2) maybe they're having trouble typing
3) their internet may be slow
4) they're avoiding me.

Ok. I just did!

French Count. I've been in a few MH hospitals and there is a great variety out there but if it is needed then that is what you should do, nothing strange about wanting help.

This thread isn't really for the questions but there are lots that do. In the How do you feel, or various daily check ins it's more of a delayed chat atmosphere. You can find the daily chats under almost any subject. The how do you feel; is under general mental health or general social chat, I think. Plus you can start your own thread now that you have 5 posts, just look for a related subject and post your question in the title and you will get a response.

oh my goodness, that must annoy the heck out of you. I'm really sorry to hear it I don't really have any good advice.

I need to stop holding grudges against people. It isn't going to get any better.

I am free. It's just not what I thought it would be. But it's freedom.

cant believe there's ageism here in the chatrooms. i wanted to join a conversation but they kicked me out.

Felt nice to disable the alarm clocks, tonight. *sigh of relief* Until September(well, minus a few days for my son's camp, but that's different)

Justin bieber's song is playing in my head at this moment. I heard it at school last year. They were playing it on the radio and gosh, they can't come up with better songs? Nothing personal, but I am not a huge fan of him.

I feel like I'm the most horrible person ever. I certainly won't be coming back on pc. I make people feel worse.

I don't know but I feel like these songs should start disappearing from my mind already. The theme song of Reign, a new television series on the CW, is now playing on my head. Alex Clare, it's time for you to shut yourself out completely. Too close is the song.

I am happy to be home from work and able to just be myself again.

I am stuck in my head...I took a nap yesterday before IOP and slept through the beginning I "should" have gone (even if I would have arrived late), but I was isolating and didnt want to talk.

I know too I would have felt better to get it out, and being around others, esp when I am feeling so awful. It is a big key to healing for me, but I did myself the disservice of staying home.

I was so "triggered" yesterday, I just clammed up.

I have 5 stuffed animals lined up for surgery. I don't recall booking this into my Saturday schedule. I am going to need to fire someone for booking me on my day off!

I'm going to need vitals on the monkey...his head is just hanging there...

That was close. After the monkeys head was surgically reattached, there was discovered a hernia that needed a repair. While in the OR, a fight broke out in the waiting room and security needed to come in.

Now, there's a turkey that looks like it escaped dinner, a dinosaur with what appears to be an abscessed tooth, and two dogs requiring neck surgery---one of which had to have the 'insides' put back inside--seems the 'uncle' destuffed the dog, but the mother of the owner was able to rescue the insides from the trash can...

It's a hairraising day...Monkey is doing well in the recovery room

OK. That was an extensive and radical procedure. The Turkey, may need to see an optho-neurologist for a VEP(Visual Evoke Potential) test. I am concerned about his eye sight, as I needed to repair some of the 'tissue' around the eyeball.

{{and in case you are wondering why I know about VEP's....have had one myself before }}

Roger that

The dog with the stuffing, was able to restuffed and stiched up. Actually, the most minor of the 5 surgeries to be performed today. I'm sending the other two out for testing...this Dr. Mom needs to have something for lunch....

Excellent work