Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

I can be very childish sometimes. A child talks a lot and I do a great deal of talking. I can't stop talking. I can't stop repeating myself. Sometimes I find myself going off topic or talking sheer nonsense.

Very exhausted. I cannot seem to get any regular sleep at any regular times.
I am very stressed out over money, but at the same time I know that I have done all I can to make money and pay my bills so whatever.
I hope today goes well.
Ho hum.

There are times I blurt out certain things that may not be appropriate to discuss. As a result, others get upset and I feel like such a fool afterwards.

****... how did it get to be 2am already...

*sigh* I wish I could just go into my own world and never come back......

I think I've been here too long...

getting a lot out of PC and trying to give as well, but like with any good thing, must do in moderaton!

i'm having a semi-breakdown already and i haven't even left the house yet

Sick of most things I say being taken the wrong way.

i'm not feeling all that great. I mean, i feel like people are looking at me. I feel like people are just so not understanding, especially my generation. the older generation is more relatable and more experienced. I like talking to them. Ugh, you should see the kids in my class. they're loud and boisterous. It makes us so hard for others to concentrate. I can see it in their faces. Seriously, if they don't want to learn, they don't have to show up because I want to learn and if they're preventing that from happening, i will ensure that they're driven out of the premises.

there were these two guys that i met a few days ago and they seemed pretty cool. today i saw them but i didn't say hi to them. they walked away laughing, either at me or something else. I just hoped that they weren't laughing at me because I'm not okay with that crap.

I went to my youngest sons kindergarten end of year slideshow, today. What a busy day. Went in, early to work, to prep trays for cooking. Then had to run to the high school, to get the rest of the days supplies, as the internal delivery driver's vacation started yesterday. Got back, prepped some more, cooked and then the Business Manager arrived to relieve me, so I could step out and go to the school my son goes to. Wasn't going to miss this one, been to my other two's and wow, the smile on his face.

I downed an entire bottle of water, just sitting there, and wow, how cool did that room feel, even with windows open and fans blowing. Get's a bit hot, in the kitchens.

As my middle son's slideshow, last year, it was to the tune, "you've got a friend in me." Thank a couple of the teachers, one of which has worked with all three of my sons. And his teacher, whom, last year, taught my middle son.

On the way out, there was a mom crying, believe me, I felt that pain, too, gave her a small pat on the shoulder on the way out, because the reality is, these little moments in our childrens lives, also sinks in with us parents that these moments aren't to be experienced, any longer.

I cannot believe how much I have sweated this week. They really gave us more prep work than is normal.

The business manager was in a panic when I got back, she thought we'd run out of disposable serving trays. When it got down to the wire, she may have miscounted, since I looked at my employees, smiled during the 3rd to last lunch and said, Hey look...5 extras

Yeah!!! Cleaning tomorrow, getting stuff ready for storage and voila...

let this wet, rainy summer begin!!!

I feel like doing some artwork. But I wouldn't know where to start.

I think it will have to be somethig fresh and new....not the stuff I've been mulling- over, in my head, for forever.

Today is the last day of my daughters dance camp and we get to see what have been working on all week. She LOVES to dance and I love to watch her dance.
Maybe later we get to spend some time at the pool.
She loves that too.

I want hot summer temps!!! It is almost the end of June and we were wearing coats again yesterday. Send some heat!!!

It is like that here in England too, Depressing

I'd gladly send 40 extra degrees Fahrenheit if I could it's plus 100 degrees here. 65 sounds great, right now it's 5am and still 79 degrees!

Ugh! My anxiety is way up. I watched a drama last night that I thought would be "dramatic / action-y / suspenseful, and it ended up being really scaring me and affecting me. It reminded me of that guy I dated a few months ago I felt sick. And sad. And thought, "I dodged a bullet with that one".

I woke up in the middle of the night , went back to sleep - sort of - and got up with horrible butterflies and have that choking feeling meh.

Trying to do affirmations, comforting practices, etc but I just feel scared. He is totally out of my life but I still feel sick. I am soooo glad he finally went away. I pray it stays that way.

Yikes.

Hello guys, I just joined and I dunno what to say really?
Has anyone been to a mental hospital? I kind of want to go to one. That's a bit strange isn't it?

Nicks, come to the deep south! Though I can see if it weren't so hot here, with the rain we've had, I wouldn't be in flipflops and summer clothing, nor would be garden be so nice (and of course, so much work, as well!)

Buttercup, wish I could send some heat over across the pond, we could spare it I think. Maybe you'll get a break from coat weather soon!

Yup, know what you mean sidestepper, in the US deep south!

OH dear, Rose, I hate it when getting unexpectedly triggered by something we watch! Hope you feel better soon and TG that person is no longer in your life! The best!

Yes, Spirit, I sure know what you mean. Am dealing with this sort of stuff, big time, lately, it seems. I'm always glad when there is a calm for a while, eventually. Take care!

my BP and other stuff really triggered lately by marital, family, and survival issues. Trying to enjoy the good, and fix what I can, being realistically positive. I am really tired, though, physically and mentally. But hangin in there!!!