Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

Funny thing...I am afailure too. I effed up my life, my ex's life, and my kid's life.
I have effed up my finances, my friendships....hell I don't know any part of my life I have not effed up royally.
But I will be DAMNED if I am gonna quit...that means they win. F#@K that!
I don't care what they say, what they do, or how much it hurts....I will cry on my own and then come out smiling because those buttholes don't deserve to win...they joy in seeing my pain and agony. Middle finger for them...salute!

I am working HARD to get my life back on track...and something always comes along to push me around. My ex has to remind me how much I effed up HER life...my daughter loves me and wants me in her life 24/7 and I am forever thankful for that and for her.
Eventually I am sure even my kid won't want me around all that much.
Except for my kid, the rest can KMA!

I EXPECT to see your chins up, shoulders back, moving forward, taking no prisioners and leaving no survivors....just kick arse!

WE ARE ALL BETTER THAN WE THINK!

Struggling...with differing expectations of what I can and cannot do...

Sometimes, "pushing through it all", or, "fake it til you make it", is a gigantic royal hassle.

These hyper, superhumanly energetic people seriously need to back off.

Today, both vehicles have been commandeered, w/o checking w/me, first, so I can't even run away from all this plan-making and day-filling.

There's nothing like the feeling that you're expected to be all wonderful and understanding about everything and yet never be consulted about one iota of it, or how it might affect my plans.

Can you say, feel like a doormat????

Constantly changing your name and pretending you are something you are not still isn't working for you.

My hair stylist went scissor happy and cut my shoulder length adorable messy wavy bob of a hairdo wayyy to short.

I hate it....I feel so ugly. I don't exactly blame her ... I just don't know what the girl was thinking

I am pissed. It is going to take another 3 months to grow it out. Damn.

Today is just....unhhh
Sometimes I'm tired of being in my own head...and tired of missing the beauty and serenity that life has to offer because I'm so focused on my emotionally-centered thoughts. My thoughts and feelings consume me and drag me down to the point where I feel I am just...missing it all...
I am okay with melancholy now and again..but not okay with the grooved paths my thoughts are stuck on...I just want freedom from the emotional garbage of my brain.

watching Britains got tallent, 11 year old Arixandra looked so small standing on the stage waiting to hear if she was going throught to the final or not, her voice is amazing and she got more public votes than 36 kid strong dance show. She did so well and i hope she goes on to win she really deserves it.

I agree, She is very talented and I really hope that she wins.

Just wondering about my life and about things. I can't seem to connect with people. I am worried. I am just so odd and awkward. Wish I could put things in better perspective. Just throwing my thoughts out there though, and it feels a little better

I'm just so confused it's untrue, none of it makes sense to me, i'm trying to understand i really am but i'm so lost right now and got so many other worries going round my head right now i can't think straight. I'm trying to stay one step ahead so i don't have to take the easy way out, because that will be only choice left if it goes the way i think it might, God i hope it doesn't but i have this horrible feeling.

Rich came round and looked at me and said what's up with your eyes, have you been in a fight you've got two black eyes. I looked in the mirror and i did have two black eyes, but not from fighting but from the meds i'd taken to knock myself out. When you've been awake for two days existing only on nervous energy you have to take pretty drastic action to switch off. Maybe i took one too many, it certainly looked like it.

I'm off, nothing becomes clearer, nothing helps, it's all just a muddle. It was never meant to be. I'm sorry i couldnt do better, i really am.

Just...floating. Spinning off into space, actually. Have a funny taste in my mouth right now. So much going on inside of me right now it's crazy. I'm not sure how I made it through this day.

geez.. two times now I have written something, a thread.. and just deleted it all..

I don't know... do i have my answer already in me?

nearly every day now I wonder how much worse can I feel. Don't want to fall into a deep and dark place.

people ask whether i'm fine, how am i doing. sometimes i wish i could ask them "are you really ready to hear the ultimate truth? that if i'm not doing doing well, would you accept it and support me? or are you going to dismiss my feelings and say "don't be sad! there's nothing to be sad about! just be happy!" nonchalantly?

i guess this is why some of us stick to saying "i'm okay" for fear that the latter would happen.

I just kind of wish the Earth would open up and swallow me. I want to return back to my original state. I want to return back to my star-state.

Yeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaw

I had a great birthday! On my birthday on Thursday, we went out for sushi. On Friday we had a big party with my family and friends. On Saturday my best friend surprised me by coming up from Florida! Everyone else had known she was coming but me! It was awesome. She leaves tomorrow. I wish she didn't have to go!

Happy Belated Birthday, tokiwartooth! It sounds like you had a great time

i am such a F*** up sometimes.

Happy belated birthday tokiwartooth

Happy belated birthday ((((Toki))))

I have just had my hair permanently straightened, I gotta say it's the best thing I've ever done for myself. I hope it will help to make me like myself a bit more.

Im feeling so low depressed alone i hate the fact my agoraphobia has complety taken over my life atm. I get panicky just thinking about leaving the house. Ive tottaly just been avoiding eveeything and eveeyone.
I need a friend

happy bday toki!!!!

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Happy birthday Toki!!!

Good on you pegs

Why reject others, when we can accept them? Why fill the earth with negativity, when just as easily positivity suffices? Why tear others down, when building them up benefits everyone? Why hold grudges, when forgiveness is on the table. Why be jealous, when we have our own unique qualities to shine? Why hate....why?