Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

I'm finally getting things all squared away to see a therapist regularly.

I really don't lightbulb, i just don't know. I have offered forgiveness and it was thrown back in my face. I have asked so many times to talk it's ridiculous, umpteen times, time after afte time i have asked to talk and each time i was told no. And then i get abused because i give up asking. The trick with the mouse was really funny, absolutely hilarious. Just another example of the games people play.

Forgiveness was never on the table forr this person, if it was there have been plenty of opportunities to make it happen. It's just more games. I'm not asking again, i'm done asking. She can go off with whomever she wants as long as she leaves me alone.

Dul-drums!

I mean I'm bored!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I'm always at work. My spouses life is driving them to a bad place, I do what I can while not home by phone. But at times to no avail. So want to say more, just still can't bring myself to say it out loud. Sometimes still feel like I am a ticking time bomb. Just waiting for the right spark, and it saddens me, because I have a sinking feeling I know where the match will be lit, and what over. I could even probably guess the time as well.

I have been really trying to stay out of the New Ladies issue at work, even though every morning she comes in complaining.... I have been sympathetic to her.. but yet not gotten involved with it.

At least i was not an emotional sponge this last time,

and
never mind. it is always the same old ******** around here.

I think I need a magical pill to make me numb for a while so I can be somewhat productive. Or maybe I need ben & jerry's new ice cream - peanutbutter and raspberry.

Today feels...different. Like a new beginning. Like something's about to change. I like this feeling.

Congratulations you opened your eyes today.....

i guess this is better than no news... i got into a university. right now it all seems very bleak because there's no guaranteed future with this. i don't know. i'm just hoping i make the right choice.

'Tabloid' journalism is a vile substance. Anyway aside from that wtf hasn't some-one took a serious look at Amanda Bynes situation? I mean her family/friends/ANYONE. This isn't right. The girl has something going on. She's fortunate...she has access to aid and resources which many do not. Are those close to her sitting on their hands or are those hands tied???What's the hold-up?

One thing about the trash tabloid posts...they're making folks sit up and notice things are awry. Too bad they have to ooo, ahh, crow and prattle like the crowd at a Nascar pile-up. Insincere w-nkers...playing it like a circus side-show.

ergh i got an early start tomorrow...gotta leave home at 8am. allowing an hour and a half for spasms to stop, an hour for a bath/ dry/rest and dress, plus time for extras in case i need to change my bum a second time or my top cos i messed it eating breakfast and the time for retrieving dropped things, breakfast etc, i guess i better set the alarm for...4.45am ... ergh why did i ever agree to be in central London for a 9.30 meeting!

Okay... so the beans weren't really magic. But they could have been.

I'm so ready for this headache to go away.

I find it a lot harder to get back up again after I get knocked down now that Chumbawamba broke up

hmmm....

yeah....

I don't know. I just don't get why My sister can't reply back in a timely fashion of things her kids like, what type or what not....

I don't get me either with being bothered by this, not obsessing over it or dwelling, but I am bothered about it....

Finances are on my mind today. URGH!

My disclipline with money is just not there. I have overspent again, and now I am shaking my heard and asking myself why I did this. I cannot make heads or tails of it. It's like all of my money sense is on a time delay or something.
I will just keep on doing my best and maybe one of these days I will get it right.
Surely I cannot give up!

I love sitting on the couch and looking out the window...all I can see is the top half of the tree in the front yard. Right now the sky is overcast and the wind is blowing the branches to and fro. It's a peaceful sight.

I hate Verizon Wireless for screwing me over again..this time by changing the date I can upgrade my phone when they changed their "policy." It's TERRIBLE customer service and I am out of there as soon as I can be. In 7 more freaking months.

I have no money sense or money control, so I feel your pain.

To the guy who held me as a captive audience whilst bellowing about how rich and untouchable he is:

Being important is like being a lady. If you have to tell people that you are; You aren't.

Thanks for wasting my time and being completely unhelpful. That is all.

I like Who wants to be a millionaire.

What happened to salt water taffy? These colors??? day-glow orange, puke green, purple? This is not the taffy of my childhood!

Crackers, I want crackers.

Random thoughts are swilling around.

Am i strange? Weird? I have a direct path ahead of me! But instead of taking up the offer to go straight to a degree i am thinking of taking a foundation course instead...

It sucks to make decisions when you're still deep deep in depression. Im doubting myself even more..

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I become seriously enraged at liars, fakes, and stalker-types. Don't EVEN get me started!!!

Sometimes, I wish there could still be such a thing as frontier justice.

Am furious, absolutely furious. (If you listen very closely, you will actually be able to hear my teeth grinding.)

Some people's nerve definitely exceeds their intellect.