Stupid P doc's

There need to be more people who are sensitive and intuitive going into these profession-
I truly missed my calling. I was disillusioned then, and I’m disillusioned again.
I got me psych degree and the left it all behind, thinking I would be too burdened by my patients problems, because I am just that ****ing sensitive- but now if I want to go back, it’ll take forever and a day and I don’t have the money to pay the bill anyway. (education is a rip off, but that’s another story for another day).
I went to my psychiatrist today to check in- I’m sure I was notable in a subdued mood- I said as much, how I’m not in the best mood- stressed out by life in general and stressed about all the stuff my bf’s going thru, and I wish I could’ve seen him this week- I miss him so much- but seriously, she had no intuitive feelings that I was holding anything back. Which I am. I always am. For all you know, I could be a danger to myself and others and she would have no ****ing clue. I mean I’m not, I’m just fed up with life right now, wishing things/hoping things could be better for my baby and me. . . . Oh yeah, and peace in the middle east and everywhere- no more greed, materialism and warfare worldwide would be nice too. J

So why did you leave it behind and what's stopping you now from getting started in psychology or psychiatry again? I'm just thinking out loud, but maybe for the sake of others, you should consider getting back into it? You know, get a handle on things for yourself and then work on making life better for just a few others?

Well, for one, I'm more of an artist by nature, Id much rather write poetry(something I've been doing since I was a young girl) for a living if I could- or write children's books. I also have a passion for painting- both my parents majored in art in college. Not like they did anything with it- this culture is so harsh- though I keep seeing pictures of crappy modern 'art' getting sold for thousands of dollars, so maybe there's hope for me yet. I also have a very caring nature and have completed as caregiver course and have been looking for a job in that area- as well as editing too. I don't have the patience for going back to school and dealing with all that bs, plus its way too damned expensive. We should have free education and free healthcare here, among other things. And it's of course hard to get your foot in the door because most places don't have any positions available for those with experience.

On the threads topic, this is why I haven't searched out any help in a while. I'm terrified because I hide so much instinctively now and I try so hard to act so damned normal, I'm afraid my real issues will get over looked. So I'm here, reading your thread(wishing I could draw) and avoiding what I shouldn't.

As for you (AngstyLady) I wish you the best of luck, you seem so well rounded and filled with such good intention that I can't do anything but hope for you. I sincerely hope you manage to go where you want to.