how is everyone doing?

just wanted to know how all you guys are doing? you can vent here to if you want. i want this thread to also have people and myself suporting and helping everyone the needs it here. because this site is so huge and you can get lost in thread after thread, it can be hard for me to keep up and help whoever needs it at the time so this is why i made this thread.
hope you guys use it and take full adavtage of it cause thats what its here for.

Thanks for this, bazzi, it's appreciated.

I feel oddly tired. Almost as if I got no sleep at all last night (but I did!). Very strange. Kind of have funny mild aches all over, too. I wonder if I am fighting off the flu or something.

Mentally, I actually feel pretty ok. Just a bit sluggish.

Well, I'm having an internal debate between my mom's anti-drunk driving campaign and me wanting to go to my friend's house...I'm already sober, but for her if I have ONE drink I'm done for the night. But she's already in bed so it's not like she's gonna know I'm gone.

I'm actually doing pretty good Bazzinga1990. Thank you for asking. The doctor has my meds in just the right balance so I'm feeling like a million bucks.

Good I'm really glad I'm really happy for you. That's always the hard part getting to the balance area. I wish you the best of luck and I hope that everything works out fine for you. Message me whenever you need to and we can talk.

~Ashley~

How old are you? She sounds controlling lol

~Ashley~

I'm kind of conflicted about how I feel to be honest…my stress is pretty much under control (or about as good as it's going to get anyway), but I'm not sure it's worth the sacrifice (in other words, the side effects). I'm sort of thinking that it's not worth being calm for. And I can't go see the good pdoc until I'm enrolled back in school…the one I have now doesn't care about my well-being. The side effects pretty much make me unable to achieve much sexual release (even from myself) yet able to keep the same sex drive and be able to be fully aroused. I don't know if I can ever be truly comfortable in a relationship now (which is what's important to me, not the sex necessarily) because I want to enjoy sex (and even kissing) too, you know? I guess I just have to decide whether I want to be calm or happy. I can't have both apparently.

Edit: Sorry if that's too much info…I figured someone would ask me what the side effects are anyway.

I am ok I suppose, doing my best to get out of the house someone...I met someone Id like to hang out more with...but yeah not a whole lot going on aside from anxiety and depression holding me back.

I'm settling with the thoughts of actually being able to express myself freely in a space with support and encouragement.

My happy-go-lucky feeling is calming, yet I'm still feeling positive about life.

Thanks for asking.

I was feeling quite good til I started reading some posts related to my issues and I hit some triggers that kept me awake last night. I think I will just hang out in the general discussion boards for a bit. I am not unhappy about this it just shows that I have more work to do.

Hi, Lilly, ... that happens to me, sometimes, which is why you should always be careful, when browsing a site like PC. I tend to stay away from PC, most times, because, contrary to what a lot of people will think, I think, at least for me, it's unhealthy to constantly reside here. Every time I've ever used PC extensively, I've ended up going down-hill, ... it's ultimately a constant reminder of how messed-up I am. I stay busy - I focus on the guitar and German, or a programme I like, such as my recent phase of Heroes. Hope you can take your mind offa, ... the thing that, ... thing.

As for I, ... I'm really tired. I've been up all night, again. Things are getting worse with every day. I'm obsessing over the guitar or German - put simply, I'm obsessively keeping my mind busy, so as to ignore how crappy I feel. The OCD and anxiety possibly aren't getting to me like they used to, but they're still very much present. On the flip-side, the leaps and bounds I've made with the guitar, lately, is really awesome; it makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something. Over the last week, I've either learned or mostly learned (either by remembering, or by reading tab') over 5 pieces of classical music.

Go back another week or two, and you've got possibly 8 or more pieces of music, including working on several others, massively improved my tab-reading skills, adding a lot of flamenco into my style, learning to use Travis picking, teaching myself to "hover", so I can once again use all 3 digits as I'm a fingerstyle guitarist (my pinky is useless because of a break on the 5th metacarpal, some time ago) and just generally all-round improving my playing, not to mention I'm doing quite well at teaching someone the guitar, at the moment. Feeling crappy, but distracting myself enough to get through it, I suppose.

Quite a few leaps and bounds with my German, too.

What a nice thread! Thanks for making it. PC sometimes makes me feel bad too, so I hang out mostly in the General or the Games Section.

But I am feeling ok, another day wasted not working out, but other than that I am just sluggish and a bit tired.

I know how you feel. I was really getting into weight-lifting, again, then my sleep went all crazy, and my mood plummeted, ... now I'm back to square one. ¬_¬ ...AGAIN.

Ok for the night, I am glad I have a cat in my room because their was a cricket and I do not enjoy those being in my room but the cat ate it and it was all good.

Jealous. I wish I had a furry little creature to keep me company, ... well, I do, and he's a gorgeous, affectionate, Dwarf, white rabbit, but he's inaccessible, at the moment, and I couldn't really keep him in my bedroom, in-case he chews on a wire, or wees everywhere. ¬_¬

sorry my response to this took sooooooooo long ive been in the hospital as you may have already read but are you feeling any better now or has it turned into the cold/flu?

sounds like your just in some need of a fun time and thats just fine as long as you know your safe and im very sorry this took me so long to reply ive been at the hospital as you may have already read in my last post. but im back now so ya

wow! thats where i cant wait to be with my meds but i know i'm getting there. but im so happy for you!

yeah i know the side effects on that one to many times too and its annoying but i would just hang in there and maybe try finding a different pdoc, one that may know of what better meds to put you on cause i kno you should be able to have both. i know i've been there.

know what that feels like with the anxiety and depression holding me back from things or just holding me down in life. ive not been able to have relationships because of this and im not saying the same thing goes for you just with my kind of anxiety and depression and just how i deal personally but keep trying and i hope all goes well for you and your relationship

im so glad cause thats what me and im sure a lot of people on her want to be able to do. keep it up its very nice and positive for us to see.

hey, i've been there to and noticed that about myself that i cant read certain part that i know might have a triggering effect on me too but you just foucus on you and getting better. we are here for you.

this is very nice to hear that you have found something do and yet help others with and is a HUGE distraction for yourself. that is awesome. you sound really smart btw

yeah i know what you mean about pc too. i need to get back into working out myself, that was a great distraction in it self. right now im sluggish and tired too

haha thats always a good thing having a cat for many reasons